I'm glad that you're happy
I really am
It's just that you keep forgetting about me which makes me sad
Remember all of those sweet childhood memories where the both of use genuinely smiled and laughed
Remember all of those times where we got into fights for the silliest reasons
I guess you don't anymore
All of those sweet memories of us get stored away to make more room
More room for the memories you and him share
I used to think we were inseparable
Who knew that a simple boy would replace me so fast
Of course I'll still stay with you for the rest of my life
That's what sisters do
But I'm not too sure how long that will be
I have already almost died by my hand
I know I'm not the most mentally stable person but I will always be there for you
You were my person and I was yours
Now he's your person while I'm alone
With no support I become less sturdy
That doesn't matter though
What matters are you genuine smiles and laughs that you make when he's around
All that matters is your happiness
It doesn't matter if I'm crumbling
It doesn't matter if I'm sinking
Your happiness is all that matters
Even if that means I'll be replaced
Your beautiful smiles and your melodic laugh are what's important
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I wrote this earlier today like at one am. So I was reading my suicide note to my sibling but they were too busy talking with their boyfriend. I got a little sad. It's okay though. They are in love. Love is a beautiful thing that should be treasured so I don't want to ruin it. He makes them happy. That's all that matters. Although it does bother me that when I'm in the middle of talking to them they just yell their boyfriend's name. Yes I get it but like can't you let me talk. I'm not angry at them I'm just sad. I guess I got used to being the one that made them laugh a little when they were sad. I still kinda am but he's the one that mostly makes them happy. I still love them though. Okay that's all. Bye bye.
January 30, 2021
-D.G