~~LEVI~~
The plan was we needed to get Annie Leonhart and either arrest her or kill her.
There was a full on plan on how to do this.
But before we could go on with the plan we had to train.
I wasn't even going on this mission, eren said I was too injured.
So why did I have to train.
I don't want this anymore.
I want things to go back to the way they were.
I trusted Annie.
Sure she never talked to me and neither did I her.
But we respected each other.
She stuck up for me a few times.
Why did she betray us.
She nearly killed eren.
She nearly killed me. She crushed my leg.
She doesn't deserve my respect.
I wish she was never born.
NO!
I wish I was never born.
I felt eren put his hand on my shoulder.
I didn't realise but I was on the training ground.
I was staring at my shaking hands.
Then I saw captain Mike walking up and down staring at us.
"You lot have an important mission. That is to capture the female Titan. You lot can't do that with no training. So I will put you all into pairs and you will fight each other." The captain said.
I felt eren hold my shaking hand.
"Hey calm down, I know what your thinking, stop thinking like that, I need you to think positive your the reason I've stayed strong throughout all this." Eren said to me.
I nodded.
Just say it to him before it's too late.
Speak now, he needs to know how you feel for him.
"Eren I-"
"Levi and jean." Captain Mike said.
I couldn't even finish my sentence.
I can't do anything right.
Eren he's wrong why am I his positivity his hope. Everything I do is wrong.
And I'm partnered up with horse face.
Eren was partnered up with Reiner.
He used to always be partnered up with Annie. That traitorous bitch.
She probably new exactly how to hurt him and used her Titan strength to do so.
I hate her, no I hate it.
I looked over at the horse face.
He looked annoyed to be partnered up with me.
"This is revenge." He stated.
He means from last time.
I nearly killed him.
He got into a fighting stance.
What was the point in fighting if I wouldn't be fighting any one.
He charged at me.
He punched me in the stomach.
I fell to the ground.
I gasped for air.
"Again." I mumbled.
"What?" He said confused.
"Did you not hear me horse face.... I said again." I said.
He looked angry.
He started kicking me and punching me.
Until I was coughing out blood.
He stopped.
"Look I think you've had enough." He said.
"No, hit me again." I shouted at him.
"Look man I'm not going to hit you." He said.
I got my fist ready to punch him.
He saw the fury in my eyes.
He backed away slightly afraid.
Suddenly I felt someone grab me.
I was struggling out of the grip.
Waving my arms and legs around.
"Let go, god dammit." I shouted.
"Levi, you need to calm down." I heard erens voice say.
Stop saying that.
I shut my eyes shut.
I didn't want to see anything.
I didn't want to see the bunch of people gathered around me watching how crazy I was.
I didn't want to have to be in a situation where it's do or die.
I didn't want eren to look at me the way others do, a helpless orphan.
Before I knew it I was on the ground.
I opened my eyes finally. To see eren on the ground with a bloody nose.
Everyone was staring at me.
"What the hell!" Eren said.
I felt my hands start to shake again.
My breathing.
I felt like I couldn't breath.
No, why now.
Now the whole world hates me.
Even eren the one person who I thought I could never hurt.
I saw eren stand up.
He looked at me.
"Levi you need to calm down." He said to me.
I couldn't breath, Eren used to help me with stuff like this.
Now he hates me.
Like everyone else does.
Armin and mikasa probably hate me too. They are probably thinking what a weirdo I am.
I felt my balance get wobbly.
I couldn't stay here.
I ran off I didn't know where too but somewhere that isn't here.
~~EREN~~
I realised what was happening when Levi was fighting with jean.
He was having an panic attack.
This is so much to put on someone like him.
Jean stopped and saw how badly he injured levi.
But Levi didn't want him to stop.
He wanted to feel pain, to get rid of the numbness that's inside him.
I quickly went over there and grabbed Levi.
I need to get him away from this situation.
He was struggling hitting and kicking everywhere.
"Levi you need to calm down." I said.
He was still struggling.
I swear I could see tears in his eyes.
He closed his eyes shut to stop the tears.
Suddenly I felt a big blow to my face.
Did he just kick me.
He kicked me multiple times, until my nose was bleeding.
Now everyone was gathered around.
He finally opened his eyes.
He was confused.
"What the hell!" I said.
I saw his eyes full of regret.
That's when I realised he didn't mean to do it.
He was scared.
He was having one of these panic attacks.
Flashback
Me mikasa and Levi were walking along the path when suddenly.
A scream.
I looked beside me to see the 8 year old raven haired boy screaming.
What's happened what's wrong.
His breathing was uneven.
He was mumbling things like. "I can't breath."
I need to get him back home quickly.
I picked him up bridal style and walked home.
I went quickly over to my dad.
"Dad please help him." I cried.
I was so worried.
Later on that day my dad said that Levi has anxiety and it's common for people with it when their really sad or grieving to have these panic attacks.
They were continuous for a long time because of what's happened to everyone he's cared for.
But they soon stopped after he learned to accept that there wasn't any other way they would be safe.
They only happen when he feels really sad, about everything.
Present day
He was panicking.
Oh no what have I done.
"Levi you need to calm down." I said standing up.
His breathing was very uneven.
"Just breath in and out follow my breathing." I then said.
But he couldn't seem to focus on anything.
He looked in pain.
He soon ran off.
"What the hells going on here?..... Ackerman get back here." The captain shouted.
Levi was just running into the distance.
"I'll get him sir." I said running after Levi.
I was running for about half an hour until I reached levi.
He was wrapped in a ball sitting under a tree.
I sat down next to him.
He was shaking.
"I'm so sorry...." he cried.
He looked up at me with teary eyes.
I gave him a small smile.
"Shhh..... don't worry it's okay. You didn't do anything wrong it's the anxiety speaking." I said trying to calm him down.
"Eren it hasn't happened in so long I thought it was over and done with." He sobbed.
I hugged him.
"I get you feel sad and betrayed we all do but remember there's also a chance that she isn't the female Titan I don't believe Annie could do something like that. Have faith." I said calmly stroking his hair.
He nodded wiping his eyes that kept streaming with tears.
He put his hand on my cheek.
I winced in pain.
"I hurt you." He said.
"It's nothing I forgive you, I was never mad at you I was just shocked." I said.
"But jean hates me for when I beat him up..... why don't you."
"Because jean is just a weird guy with a horse face who's got nothing better to do with his life than bully you and look like a horse." I said.
He giggled.
That's nice to hear.
Soon we walked back to everyone else.
Levi apologised to everyone.
And I explained to the captain what happened.
And now tomorrow will be the day I face the female Titan.
I'm so sorry I've had this idea in my head for so long and didn't know where to put it in.
So yeah the next chapter the story line continues.
This book is gonna be very long with way more chapters so get comfortable and you'll see more ereri in the next chapter.
No spoilers but I think something may happen.
~zee