What, no I'm not listening to drivers license while I write.... why would you even say that?
Also- this and the next chapter are fillers because I have a really great idea but it can't happen until Ricky gets home, so please stick around till then.
Nini
"Okay, love you Neens!"
"Love you!"
I groan. I have no idea how to tell Ricky about the Youth Actors Conservatory. I have to tell him at some time, I have only have a week to decide. I decide to make a pros and cons list:
pros:
great opportunity!
could start off a career in acting
getting my name out there!
new start
cons:
I can't just leave Ricky and Kourt...
I have friends here
it's a boarding school and I won't get to see my moms very often
I'm happy here
I sigh. This chart hasn't helped me one bit. I don't know what I expected, they never do. I pick up my journal and start writing.
𝘋𝘦𝘤𝘦𝘮𝘣𝘦𝘳 27, 2020
𝘏𝘰𝘸 𝘢𝘮 𝘐 𝘴𝘶𝘱𝘱𝘰𝘴𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘙𝘪𝘤𝘬𝘺 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘠𝘈𝘊? 𝘏𝘦'𝘭𝘭 𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘣𝘢𝘣𝘭𝘺 𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘮𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘨𝘰, 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘪𝘴 𝘢 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘢 𝘮𝘪𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘰𝘱𝘱𝘰𝘳𝘵𝘶𝘯𝘪𝘵𝘺. 𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘸𝘦 𝘮𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘭𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘬? 𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸. 𝘞𝘦 𝘭𝘪𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘨𝘰𝘵 𝘣𝘢𝘤𝘬 𝘵𝘰𝘨𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳. 𝘈𝘯𝘥 𝘒𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘵! 𝘐 𝘤𝘢𝘯'𝘵 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘴𝘦𝘯𝘪𝘰𝘳 𝘺𝘦𝘢𝘳! 𝘖𝘧 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘴𝘦, 𝘴𝘩𝘦'𝘭𝘭 𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘮𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘨𝘰, 𝘵𝘰𝘰. 𝘞𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘥𝘰 𝘐 𝘥𝘰?
I'll tell him. I will. Mama C comes into the room.
"Hey honey, are you okay?" she says, seeing the look on my face.
"Well, no, actually. I just don't know what to do about YAC."
"Well, as your Mom, I just want what's best for you. And if going makes you happy, then go. If staying makes you happy, then stay. Just think, what will make you happy? Because ultimately it's your decision, and your life."
I sit on my bed for w while, thinking about what she said. Ricky makes me happy, but so does acting.
Well, my friends have swayed the argument.
I don't know why, but I'm kind of nervous. I'm not going to call her today, because it's far too late, but tomorrow, I'll do it. I sigh and go to sleep.
Hi, it's me again. Sorry this is super short. I just didn't really know what else to write, also I'm kinda exited about some sibling interactions going on between Penny and Ricky. Hehe. K I'm done now. ✌🏼