This chapter contains physical abuse. If it's triggering, you can skip this part. The whole part is in an italic font.
I could not detach myself from his hold. His hands pressed on my neck and my face became more and more bluish. I feel how it became black in front of my eyes but he held my neck tighter and tighter and he also hit me against my belly. It felt like I was a doll that was always used for boxing.
The pain got worse and worse until I couldn't feel it anymore. I tried to take my last breath before leaving this world, but at that moment he let go of me and I fell to the floor. My hands immediately flew to my neck and I tried to relieve this stinging feeling. When I thought this torture was over I saw from my vantage point how my sperm donor was walking towards me with a kitchen knife.
I got up with a scream and the first thing I saw after this bad nightmare was Lorenzo's dark gray eyes. His hands were over my head while he held my arms.
His thighs clamped my legs together. I could feel the closeness of his heat, smell the strong, rich odor wafting from his body. My pulse was beating faster and faster.
My palms became sweatier and sweat ran down my body. I could not explain to myself why my body had such a reaction. Why I did not flinch away when I felt his closeness.
I was lying on this bed like a doll and that's how I felt. Not a single part of my body could move let alone stand up.
"Breathe."
The word sounded in my ears and as if by magic I did so.
In. Out. In. Out. I repeated it several times until I had my breathing under control. "You were screaming in your sleep and you hurt yourself. I got up in time before it got worse. I think you should take a shower to calm down a bit and then I'll take care of the scratches on your belly" said Lorenzo and let go of me.
His voice was cold and it felt like he regretted waking me up. I waited just a moment to make sure I could get up and then went into the open bathroom. I asked lorenzo quietly and nicely to look away and he did.
Undressed, I waited for the water in the shower to be warm enough for me. Showering is one of the most relaxing things in the world and after a sleep terror it is very pleasant but not this time. I hurried because I was afraid that lorenzo would see me naked.
I washed my hair, my body and then dried myself. When I got dressed I went back and saw him standing in front of the giant window. He was topless and this sight was more than great. I wanted to see more but he was too fast.
He turned around when he heard my footsteps. He already had the first aid kit in his hand and led me to the bed. I pulled up my sweater a little so that he could take care of my wounds better.
I knew he could see all the scars like he saw the cuts and scars on my thigh and the wound he had treated the day before yesterday. I closed my eyes as His finger ghosting over my wounds.
My heart stopped for a second and my hairs rose up. Something just happened to my body and I couldn't understand or explain it. I never let anyone take care of me and now Lorenzo does it almost every day.
After he was done he just walked out of the room without saying anything and left me alone in the room. Valentina has already told me that Lorenzo shows almost no emotions or feelings and now I feel it.
I know I shouldn't think anything since he and I have nothing to do with each other but still it hurts a little. While I was making the bed I realized that I wanted to ask Lorenzo something.
I went down to the living room and stopped when I saw what was in front of me. Lorenzo was standing with Matteo next to a woman and when I realized who it was I couldn't hide my feelings.
Anna was standing there. All three of them looked at me and Anna immediately ran towards me. She hugged me and I could not hide the tears.
"What are you doing here" I asked with joy.
„ Hey baby. I missed you. I'll tell you the real reason later, after we've been looking at wedding dresses". Mr. Mancini also wanted me to be here to keep you and Valentina company" she said, stroking my hair. I can't believe she is here.
"Tell me what happened in the last weeks" she asked and we sat down on the sofa. Lorenzo and Marco were already out again who knows what they are doing. I took a deep breath and told her everything. Valentina joined us after she woke up and we all talked.
After a while I heard Lorenzo call my name and I went to the kitchen where I heard the voice.
"I want you to take the pill before we get married. I know it's too early to have children and we don't know what will happen in the future. It is for your protection" he said and gave me the pills.
I took them without a question and put them in my jeans pocket.
"When are we going to pick you rings" I asked quietly because he was very fixated on his phone. He looked at his expensive watch and said we were leaving now. I said goodbye to the girls and we went to the car where Antonio was waiting.
Inside the car was an uncomfortable silence. Lorenzo was on the phone as usual and I just looked out the window.
"Here, I got you a cell phone. You have Marco's, Valentina's, Antonio's , Chino' s and my number. You can't have social media what you probably. Otherwise you can do whatever you want" he started to say and gave me the phone in my hand.
It was the new iPhone 11 and it was much bigger than my hand. Nevertheless, I am very grateful for it so I thanked him warmly and he even smiled.
This little smile awakened something in me that I could not describe. I looked out the window and closed my eyes.
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In my whole life I have never been in such a store. Everything sparkled, glittered and when I looked at the prices my eyes popped out. No numbers were under a thousand here. Lorenzo and I stood in front of a large pallet with over ten diamond rings. I was supposed to choose an engagement ring and a wedding ring but to be honest the decision was too hard for several reasons.
First of all, there are so many beautiful rings and I would love to take them all.
Second reason, Lorenzo pays for everything and that makes me feel guilty.
After a while and a lot of help I found the two most beautiful rings.
Each ring had a narrow sliver band. Sliver stones glistening under the lights of the jewelry store. The first ring was simply plain but gorgeous nothing less with just small stones on the band while the second ring had a sliver asscher stone placed in the middle of it and I kept twirling both rings between my fingers.
Checking each angle with a smile on my face failing to notice Lorenzo's burning gaze on me.
"Do you like them?" Lorenzo asked and this time it was quiet and pleasant. He was not on the phone but stood right in front of me and looked me in the eye. I nodded happily and was about to say something when the saleswoman interrupted me.
"If yours sister doesn't like the rings, I can show you some in the other room. In private Mr. Mancini " she said or rather tried to flirt and squeezed his bicep. Sister?
Okay I'm not going to leave it like that.
"Hi, it's a little disrespectful to make a pass at an man in a relationship and even more so when we're engaged. We would like to have these rings now because we have plans, thank you" I said without hesitation.
I put my arms around Lorenzo's hard stomach to prove it to her. Lorenzo looked at me in amazement with a smirk and wrapped his arm around my shoulders.
Lorenzo got a silver ring for himself too and told the woman that she he want our names and the date we get married engraved inside the wedding rings. Since when can I talk to others like that. I felt like a jealous woman and that's not good.
Lorenzo paid for the rings and we went back to the car.
"I didn't know you were marking territory like that bambolina" he whispered in my ear and I immediately got goosebumps.
He took my left hand and slid the engagement ring on my ring finger. I was really in love with this ring and also with the other one.
Not wanting it to be more embarrassing, I turned away from him and put my head on my hands. I heard a short chuckle from him and then it was quiet again.
God I'm embarrassing.
I was acting like a pubescent teenager. Jealousy, my emotions just everything .
I have to tell the girls everything when we are at home.
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The wedding planner was there and I really have to admit something. Getting married is really exhausting, especially when you are getting married in less than two weeks. We had to take care of everything.
Food, decoration, location and all the other little things. Marco and Lorenzo left for the office when we were getting ready to look at wedding dresses.
Like at the jeweler, everything is white and sparkling. Prices are even higher than jewelry.
"Welcome to Tulle and Tears, what can I help you with?" ,the saleswoman asked and she looked really sympathetic and nice.
As usual, I was interrupted just as I was about to answer her. "My soon-to-be sister-in-law is getting married soon and so we are looking for a dress. We don't have any specific wishes and no price limit so just bring it here please" Valentina said confidently and sat down with Anna.
The woman took me to all the dresses and we looked for some favorites. Valentina and Anna were really a big help.
As usual I couldn't decide but after several hours I found my dream dress.
The dress literally called out to me and I couldn't take my eyes off of it. It was stunning and put every other dress in the store to shame. Starting from the deep V neck of the dress to the off shoulders with a slight puffed up hands that were barely visible.
The lace material had a tail behind it which added to the beauty of the dress and it laid beautifully, begin spread out a bit. The front of the dress was flowing from the waist down to the bottom.
A bunch of small crystal stones littered across the dress starting from the waist to the end of the flow making it glistens when the sales lady twirled it around for me to get a better look.
On this day a childhood dream of mine came true.
Hello my beautiful readers... I wanted to to say sorry for not updating. I had a few issues with schools and personal things. I'm sorry
I want to thank -milananyx for the help with the descriptions ❤️ love you bb
This chapter is much longer than the other!!
How do you like Alaïa when she is jealous ?
I love her.
Little information. I know Valentina is a bad bitch and we all love her but she's artemixverse girlfriend !!