To find the room empty
I grabbed my phone and texted and called her but there was no answer
I checked life 360 and she was at some lake near by
I grabbed my jacket subs it was chilly
I ran back down and walked towards the lake till I saw her
" oh my god don't scare me like that"
I told her
She didn't say anything
" bils"
I asked sitting by her on the dock
" I'm sorry"
She said playing with her hands
" for what"
I asked
" you have to go through so much hate and stuff already for just knowing me.....i feel bad"
She said
" Billie"
I started
" no y/n it's the truth"
She said getting up and walking away
I grabbed her arm making her turn around
She looked down
" hey let's talk this out"
I told her wanting to know what happened
" Y/n I think we should break up"
She said
I let go of her hand and my face dropped
" oh"
I said as my heart broke
" you don't mean that"
I told her slightly laughing to try and make myself believe it wasn't real
" no y/n I'm serious"
Billie said
"Wow umm ok then"
I said feeling stupid
We both stood there as the wind blew
Neither of us talked
" I'm just gonna go"
I told her my voice cracking as I turned around and just walked back towards the hotel
Never in a million years would I have thought that would happen
After a year of us keeping everything secret
I walked and saw Claudia and Finneas chilling out by the stage still
" did you find Billie"
Finneas asked worriedly
" umm yeah she's uhh over there by the dock"
I said sniffing
" what's wrong"
Claudia asked
" Billie umm Billie broke up with me"
I told them as they gasped
" it's fine really it's my fault"
I said walking away
How could I have thought Billie would like me
Maybe I was too busy or not doing enough
I don't know
I packed my bag and moved to stay with Claudia and Finneas would stay with Billie
I passed Billie in the hallway but said nothing
I walked to Claudia and set my stuff in her room
She hugged me as I let everything out
" fuck this hurts worse then anything I've ever felt before"
I cried into her chest
" I know angel I know"
She said
" I just wanna go home"
I told her
" I know I'll see if we can leave tomorrow"
She said
Billies pov
I didn't wanna break up with y/n but I felt like I had to
She doesn't deserve her own teammates hating on her
It hurt me to know that's how they treated her
" Billie what happened"
Finneas asked
" me and y/n broke up"
I said simply as I wrote song lyrics in my notebook
Wait a minute, let me finish
I know you don't care
But can you listen?
I came committed, guess I overdid it
Wore my heart out on a chain
Around my neck, but now it's missing, hmm
I was trying to write the song from how y/n probably is feeling or from her perspective
I hummed a tune and recorded it on my phone
" listen Billie I'm sorry for how I acted I love you ok I just I was shocked and I acted out but when I saw you with y/n I knew you were actually happy"
He said
" we'll that's over now because I was ruining her life"
I mumbled
" Billie"
Finneas started
" let's just talk tomorrow"
I said turning off the lamp and laying down
I stared at the ceiling feeling lonely but it's my fault
It had to be done