Fancy POV
My noo is kumunot when Sydd stopped the car here in..
Oh my. What's this place? I only see this kind of lugar sa mga horror movie eh. This is like a forest na maraming mumu.
"Tara baba na, wifey."
I'm tumingin kay Sydd. "Do you really want me to sumaya? Why did you make me dala here?"
"Masaya dito."
I'm nag-poker-face and hindi pa din bumaba even nakababa na si Sydd.
"Seriously? You're making me gago ba? Masaya here? Look oh! It's creepy. Baka there's mumu pa dyan sa malalaking trees na 'yan!" I said.
Imagine. Forest. Yes, it's masimoy ang hangin here but the old tall trees is creeping me out. And it's so tahimik that we're the only people here. Baka mamaya, there's zombie na biglang lumitaw and make us habol. Huhuhu I can imagine the movie, 'wrong turn'.
Eventhough I'm nakatingin ng masama to Sydd, he still smiling at me. He's naka-drugs yata eh.
"Wifey. Don't you trust me?"
I cleared my lalamunan. "It's not that, Sydd. Kasi this place is nakakatakot naman talaga. I never imagine that meron palang mga ganitong place in real life. I thought, sa movies lang."
"Don't be afraid. As long as you're with me, don't. Okay? Let's go. Baba ka na dyan. Bahala ka, kapag nagmatigas ka dyan, iiwan kita dito sa kotse mag-isa."
My eyes are nanlaki. No! He cannot iwan me here! Paano nalang if there is zombies diba? E'di they can make me kagat agad! Waaaaa! No.
I'm mabilis na bumaba that can make Sydd laugh. "What's funny? Psh."
"Duwag mo wifey. Pag manti-trip ka, lakas ng loob mo."
I make paikot my eyeballs to him and sumabay na sa paglakad. There's this way na may arrow pa if saan kami liliko. My bag is with me so I have my phone naman if ever may sumulpot ng zombies, I will make them yaya muna to take selfie before make me kagat so I can upload it to my instagram.
I noticed that this place is tahimik talaga. All I can hear is the chirping of the ibons and the swaying of the puno. The air is so fresh pa. Nakakagaan ng feelings but it keeps on creeping me out.
Saang lugar ba'to? Sydd have madaming alam agad kahit he's not taga-rito naman talaga sa Pilipinas. How did he make alam this place kaya.
Maya maya, I'm nakakaramdam na ng medyo masakit sa feet ko. Our nilalakad is medyo mahaba kasi eh. Saan na ba 'to?
"Sydd, where ba tayo pupunta. I'm pagod na and my feet is masakit na."
He's tumigil and then faced me. "Dapat pala nag-flat-shoes kana lang." Sabi nya then he make upo. "Sakay."
W-what did he say? Sakay...to him? Omg. I kennat! I'm nahihiya and..waaaaa!
"W-Wag na. I can make lakad pa naman eh." I said.
"Sakay na kasi. Isa!"
I pouted my labi then pinatulan ko na. My feet is masakit na din naman and there's no masama naman if I make piggyback sa kanya, right?
I'm dahan dahan na sumakay sa back nya. And there, he make tayo na and started walking again. It feels awkward, like hello! I'm nahihiya pa din kay Sydd kahit inaapi ko siya sometimes.
"Malapit na tayo, wifey. I'm sure mag-e-enjoy ka."
I'm ngumiti lang. I have no guts to speak. Kasi...waaa! I'm naiilang talaga eh and I'm a bit kinakabahan. Why ba! I'm not suppose to mahiya kay Sydd.
Later on, my eyes are biglang nanlaki when I saw the place. Ohmyhollychuvaners! Is this real?
Sydd make me baba na so I'm standing now. As I scan the place, I can't pigil myself na mapanganga. I didn't expect this place. A park. And there are lot of people here. Like couples, family, childrens, oldies and more!
It's a wide park na may mga little trees sa gilid then there are mga stalls ng foods din. Mga streetfoods, cotton candies..and more! Ohmytwistyfries! It's nakakagulat talaga. How come there's a place like this? I didn't know.
The place is clean and parang ang light ng feeling when you're here. The grass is malinis din that you can make higa pa there like others doing ngayon.
"Wonderful place, right?"
I nodded. "How did you know this place?"
"Ewan ko din. Yung minsan na pagala-gala lang ako. Kung saan-saan hanggang 'di ko namalayang nakarating ako dito. Ang galing nga eh. Tapos nakaka-refresh ng isip dito. Ang gaan sa pakiramdam ng ambiance."
Agree ako to what he said. I like the ambiance of this place. It's bagay to me who's basag ang heart. You know, I can smile na and I can act strong but still, it hurts inside. The sakit is not madaling maalis naman eh. I really need to move on muna para maalis na ang pain dito sa heart ko. It's basag na basag na kasi and I don't know how to fix this again.
"So, what our gagawin here?" I asked.
"Bili tayo ng foods then dun tayo sa damuhan sa may puno." Sabi nya then he held my hand. Again, I felt the electricity. I make it balewala nalang kasi he's still holding my hand eh. Errr! What is this ba!
We make bili ng foods. So dami. There's burger, fries, streetfoods and this is not the first time that I can tikim foods like this. Before kasi, Daniella always give me food like this after class. Others say it's madumi but no. It depends siguro to tindera. Here, the foods are malinis. I can see it naman sa tindera when she cooks our order eh.
After buying snacks, we are umupo dito sa grass with a small tree na you can sandal. It's verty refreshing here talaga.
"Do you like this place?" Sydd asked me while making kain na ng burger.
I'm tumango. I must admit, I really like this place. "I feel like I have no problema at all. While looking at the nature..it makes me feel okay."
"Kaya nga dito kita dinala. Minsan kasi, labas labas din ng mansyon. Panget din 'yung lagi kalang nagkukulong sa kwarto mo."
I make kagat to my burger. "Kasi there's nothing to do naman eh. And I have no idea kung saang place maganda pumunta. Whenever I think of place na pwede puntahan, I always end up going to mall. And there, be shop-aholic."
He laughed. "Spoiled brat."
Sumimangot ako. "No! I'm not a spoiled brat 'no! I'm just..ah, princess! My brothers wants to make me happy so they sometimes pahiram their credit cards to me."
"Oo nalang, wifey. By the way, may gusto akong itanong. Pero 'wag mong mamasamain. Okay lang ba na pag-usapan natin si Blake?" He make inom ng drinks nya.
"Yes. It's fine with me." I make sagot. I don't want to be ampalaya naman eh and it's better kung mapag-usapan para it can make pamukha to myself na he's not woth loving for.
"Bakit parang naghahabol ka nung una kay Blake? Alam mo bang akala ko martir ka talaga."
I'm natigilan. Yes, I admit. Nung una, I make habol si Blake talaga because I love him and it hurts na I'm balewala agad to him even he said that he loves me.
"Because I love him. And I know he loves me too." I answered.
"You know what, wifey? Never chase anyone. Because a person who appreciates you will walk with you. But what did he do? He hurts you."
Sydd is right. I chased him. But when he make pamukha na to me that he doesn't love me, I'm natauhan agad. So there, I stopped. I don't want to be desperate.
"He makes me paasa kasi. He said he love me but he's not pala."
"Yung mga taong paasa? Sila yung mga taong hindi deserve na mahalin. Kaya nga proud ako sa'yo, wifey. Kasi nakikita ko na, slowly you're moving on."
I make tango. Yes, I'm moving on. "When you love someone you got to learn to let them go." I said.
I love him. But he hurts me. I love him. But he doesn't love me. I love him. But he's a jerk. I love him. So I let him go.
I'm not magpapakatanga to him. At least, ginawa ko lahat to prove to him that mahal ko sya. But then, all my efforts are nabalewala. So why do I need to stick to him pa? All my life, I've been dreaming of Blake to be my boyfriend, my husband, and my lifetime partner. But what he did to me? He made me realized that he's not deserving to be. Screw him.
"Wifey.."
I'm natawa ng mapait. "I'm so tanga 'no? I'm nagmahal ng wrong guy. I even cry pa sa harap ng iba when I chased him. I looked desperate that time." I don't know but my heart is sumasakit na naman that I want to cry.
"You're only human. And sometimes, we don't make the right choices. Don't cry. It's all in the past now, right? I'm here wifey."
I looked at Sydd. Everytime he said that he's here for me, he's always sincere and sa totoo lang, it touches my heart.
"Kasi eh. Eversince, si Blake na 'yung gusto ko. He's my dream guy. My hearts always tells that he's the one for me. That soon, he will make me pansin and loves me too. I'm so tanga that I'm naniwala sa heart ko. I don't even use my mind muna before. Pinakilig lang ako, I'm kinilig naman. And thinks that, wow! This is it. He noticed me. And you know what? I almost lundag to building when he said he loves me. Hindi ko pinagana ang mind ko. I always sunod my heart. That's why I'm nasaktan. It's my fault too."
"Tsk. Tsk." He drinks again then looked at me. "Sometimes following your heart means losing your mind. Kaya 'wag mong sisihin ang sarili mo. Nagmahal ka lang at dahil nga sinunod mo ang gusto ng puso mo, hindi mo na naisip kung ano ba ang magiging consequences ng paniniwala mo sa kanya nung sinabi nyang mahal ka nya. Hindi mo na isip na may possibility na masaktan ka. Wala eh, puso 'yan."
I started to cry. I'm matapang naman eh and matatag. But everytime na naaalala ko 'yung times na we're like a real couple, I'm nasasaktan.
Maya-maya pa ay naramdaman kong inakbayan ako ni Sydd and make me sandal sa balikat nya. I'm naiiyak lalo. He's comforting me kahit I know that he really likes me.
"Iiyak mo lang, wifey. Makakagaan 'yan ng pakiramdam."
I'm umiyak. Even I'm matapang in front of Blake, I'm still fragile inside. I have heart. I have feelings na nasasaktan. Oo nga, natanggap ko na that we're not meant to be but what hurts me most is that..I can feel it that he really loves me but he always makes me pamukha na hindi. So fine! Kung hindi, e'di hindi.
"Wifey.."
I wipe my tears using my kamay. I'm thankful to Sydd that he's here. I can't understand why my loob is magaan to him. Nakakapag-open-up pa ako sa kanya kahit ang totoo nyan, we're always nag-aasaran lang naman.
"I'm not the best but I promise to stay with you no matter what."
I'm lalo pang naiyak. Sydd is so mabait and he's good at comforting.
"T-Thanks, Sydd. I'm mukhang tanga na. I'm iyak ng iyak."
"It's alright to cry, wifey. Crying is a natural response to pain."
I'm napangiti to what he said. Sydd is always positive talaga. That's why we're naging close talaga before sa Paris.
"I'm done crying. My mata will mamamaga and I hate that. I will pasok pa naman tomorrow. I don't want to be panget 'no!" I joked. At least, nabawasan na 'yung pain na nararamdaman ko.
"Hahaha! Oo nga. Saka inaabangan ko pa ang trippings mo kay Blake."
I pouted my lip. "You're bad, Sydd. You really want me to make some tripping to Blake."
"Wahahaha! Eh..para matauhan sya. Na ang isang Fancy Jewel Abellano, hindi dapat kinakalaban at sinasaktan."
"Hmp! Whatever, Sydd! Let's make kain na nga our snack so we can go home na mamaya. And you know, I will think some trippings pa."
"Oo. At haharapin mo pa si Kuya Lance dahil I'm sure, nagsumbong na naman si Hazel sa guidance kanina. Bakit mo kasi ginupit ang buhok? Wala ka talagang patawad."
"She deserved that. She's nagmamaganda eh. And she pushed me to make some trippings to her. She's nagpaparinig that obviously, I'm her pinapatamaan. And you know me, I'm not nagpapa-api."
He laughed again. Sydd is baliw na yata. "You rock, wifey!"
Natawa ako sa sinabi nya. My loob is really magaan na ngayon. And I'm really comfortable with Sydd na.
Yes, I'm hurt. And I cried. But still, I'm the crazy little devil you never wished to encounter.
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Blake POV
Hindi ko na alam ang gagawin kay Jewel para tigilan nya si Hazel. Below the belt na ang ginagawa nya.
"Huhuhu! What should I do now Blake? May hair is horrible!" Reklamo ni Hazel.
Andito kami sa salas ng bahay namin and we're waiting for my parents. Magsusumbong kasi si Hazel. I'm aware that Jewel is not that low-class. Maraming connection ang pamilya nya kaya kahit gustong paalisin ni Hazel si Jewel sa SWU, I know hindi nya magagawa 'yun.
"Hayaan mo na." Sabi ko.
"Hayaan? Paano ko hahayaan 'tong ginawa nya sa'ken? Napaka-demonyita talaga ng babaeng 'yun! Makakaganti din ako sa kanya! Akala nya ha!"
Napailing nalang ako. Napapaisip ako. It's my fault kaya nagkakaganon si Jewel. I hurt her.
Kung bakit kasi kelangan ko pa syang iwan at saktan. Kung bakit kasi hindi ko kayang ipaglaban ang nararamdaman ko sa kanya. Kung bakit kasi nakatatak na sa isip ko na kahit anong gawin ko, in the end, masasaktan ko rin siya.
Mas mabuti ng mas maaga. Hangga't kaya pa nyang mag-move-on. Mas mabuti ng kamuhian niya ako ngayon.
"Blake!"
Napatingin ako kay Hazel. "Oh?"
"Let's make some trippings to that bitch."
I sighed. "Don't ever do that. And don't call her bitch."
"Bakit ba parang mas kampi ka pa sa kanya? Saka diba hate mo sya? Gawan din natin sya ng kalokohan para magdala sya!"
Hay. It's hard to be Blake Zed Smith. Damn it. "Wala akong kinakampihan. Ang saken lang, hindi porket ginawan ka ng kalokohan ay kailangan mo ng gumanti. Tch."
"Para maramdaman niya ang nararamdaman ko!"
"Bahala ko. Do what you want." I sighed. Makulit 'tong si Hazel. Wala syang pinapakinggan. Palibhasa, sunod sa luho. Unica ija eh. Tch.
Tumayo na ako. Gusto kong mag-isip at mapag-isa.
"Wait, Blake! Where are you going?"
"To my room."
"Pero hindi mo ba ako iko-comfort? Look at my hair. Anong gagawin ko dito?"
"Gupitin mo din 'yung kabilang side para magpantay. Hindi naman nakakamatay 'yang buhok." Sabi ko saka tumalikod na.
Mabait ako. Pasensyoso pero minsan marunong din akong mabadtrip. Tch. Magkukulong na naman ako sa kwarto at ilang ulit ko na namang tatanungin ang sarili ko kung tama ba ang ginawa kong desisyon. Fvck.