Just a pre warning.. some pretty intense smut will take place in this chapter.. if that's not your thing.. skip to the second half.. MA
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There was something different about Lauren today, the way her eyes flit over the TV with no interest in her head, the way her fingertips fiddled more than usual.. the way her gaze followed Camila every time she would stand from the couch.. with a book neatly tucked by her side she began to read subtly below her fluffy blanket, hiding the cover from the girl beside as her legs shuffle below her
Camila eventually caught on and had notched the change in tension, with every movement of her leg Lauren fidgeted.. slid further against the couch, her wrists bound beside her, eyes laid into the neat pages of the book
"What are you reading?"
"Nothing"
She replied back sharply as if brushing the subject of with immediate effect, Camila didn't like that answer.. she leaned over quickly grabbing the book into her palms running down into the floor to shadow the other end of the couch leaving Lauren hastily clambering over her feet as she crawled to regain her pages, but Camila was already gasping with a wild smirk plastered over her glossy plump lips
"So this is what you've been hiding from me! You're reading dom and sub culture? Wow Lauren!"
"Camila! Give it back I'm so serious right now!"
She muttered almost embarrassed as she reach up for the book only to have it snatched away from her begging fingertips, the gruff groan in her tone indicating to Camila that those blush red cheeks were more than a result of her being outed for reading a dirty book.. she was flustered and given the slight part in her thighs.. turned on
"I never knew you were interested in this stuff? So what are you.. I'm gonna say you're a sub but I could be totally wrong.."
Camila giggled watching her girlfriend bury her head frustratedly into her palms letting out a loud groan of embarrassment as the younger found excitement in the front cover of her new reading material... she decided thanks to Lauren's silence that she'd play on the taunt a little longer.. see if her suspicions were correct..
She reached down grabbing for the neck of her shirt to roughly pull her up to meet her gaze, the shocked eyes unaware of just how strong Camila happened to be, their shared breaths lingering before the younger cocked a stern brow
"I asked you a question! Answer it!"
She noticed the way Lauren's body trembled, her fingers out stretching over her thighs with a gentle puff of air, even the look in her eyes gave her enough of an answer before her glossy lips part to return the answer
"S-Sub... I think?"
She respond in a weak tone wetting her lower lip nervously as she watched Camila pout in response running her eyes back over the pages before throwing it into the ground, her eyes exuding power.. authority
"Sub Dom relationships are pretty cool... usually they involve contracts but.. verbal agreements work too... have you been reading a lot about this stuff?"
"I um.. find it interesting.. I like it a lot actually and I- I wondered what it would be like to have a Dom..."
She admit dipping her eyes down into the couch bellow her bare knees before the grip over her shirt pulled her further forward, Camila couldn't deny the pulse between her legs at the girls new interest.. if she was being honest she'd done her research in the past.. never found anyone willing to explore with her however..
"Interesting? Well.. we could explore that together.. if you wanted? We know each other well sexually so we wouldn't need to set boundaries.. and we can 'play' like in that stupid book of yours"
Camila hummed confidently leaving Lauren in a slightly hazed state, her thighs pounding and her lips drying up at the pace of her breath flowing out from her throat, she was entranced.. but not at all an expert given her sexual experiences before Camila.. it was however an Avenue that made her feel things so intense her mind would drift off in fantasy for hours..
"Y- You'd try it with me? I don't really know how to do it though.. I've just read the books.."
"Let me teach you then... Like I said.. we'll explore anything you want to and actually.. this shit kind of turns me on too.."
Camila husked running her spare palm up the sides of the girls thighs forcing a swarm of goosebumps to fly over her arms, her touch electric and her mind boggled.. she wanted it.. and she wanted it like how she'd read in the books... no niceties.. the real.. thing
"How would we do it? Would it be all the time?"
"Well there's something called 'play' it determines when you hand over the 'control' basically.. people have crazy playrooms and 50 shades of grey kind of shit but.. we could use a hand gesture.. a word? To indicate the transfer? Tell each other that we're stepping into that zone?"
Although Lauren was slightly nervous her girlfriends experience in the field or at least knowledge seemed to turn those anxieties into excitement as her mind pondered over the statement, this was something she'd dreamed about for a while.. especially with Camila
"We could do a pinky promise?"
"Sure! That'll work? There's rules too.. if you want me to be the Dom I'd set them for when we're in 'play' if you get what I mean? If you don't follow the rules as a sub you'll get punished though.."
Lauren bit down on her lip at the thought of the girl 'punishing' her.. she'd always liked the rough play and thought in that moment that maybe doing wrong was something she'd end up doing on purpose.. this wasn't the standard way of doing things but it was their way.. and it only made it all the more enticing
"I like the sound of that... doing as I'm told.. getting punished? Sign me up!"
"Well.. we can have a little practice run if you want.. see how you like it.."
Camila husked in a low hum reaching around to grab the girls plump ass between her palms, already causing a gentle reaction before even starting pulling away with an extended palm, her pinky finger lifted for Lauren to latch onto.. Lauren lift her own staring back with eyes full of lust reaching to connect their pinkies before Camila surprisingly pulled away
"Verbal consent, I need you to tell me that you accept being my submissive when we connect pinkies, that you'll do everything I say... if you don't.. I have permission to punish you..that if you don't want to do anything you safe word.. you'll need to choose that too"
Lauren gulped back realising Camila already to be playing the game, her palms growing clammy just at the thought of being controlled in the way she had read.. even her tone was playing.. with a heavy blink she shuffled forwards parting her trembling lips to speak
"I accept being your submissive Camila, when we connect pinkies I'll do whatever you say, and if I don't you have permission to punish me.. if I'm uncomfortable I'll safe word.. my safe word being yellow.."
Lauren replied with a growing smirk that was now more than eager to play the game, her hand falling forward to link fingers with her girlfriend.. well.. Dom.. they kept their hands there for a moment before pulling away, Camila stood back with a half lip bite firm yet stern while Lauren clasped her hands against her thighs
"I'm gonna set some rules, when your my sub, you call me Miss Cabello.. only that! And only talk when I ask you something or I give you permission, understood?"
Lauren nod back immediately messing up on the first rule as she didn't actually speak after being asked a question, Camila cocked a brow loving already that she had a zone to speak up, the tremble in her chest masked by the hand she used to grab for Lauren's jaw
"I asked you a question!"
"Y-Yes Miss Cabello, understood!"
She replied stuttering already feeling the dampness between her legs growing uncomfortably at the stern tone her girlfriend had taken.. it was already better than she had expected and wanted nothing more than for this to continue... Camila nod satisfied before walking around to the front of the couch. Her palm grabbing for the girls shirt yet again to pull her up onto her feet
"Take your clothes off! All of them!"
Lauren quickly removed her shirt revealing her exposed chest before dragging her thin panties down the length of her thighs, each moment painfully silent only adding to the wetness forming below, after she stood back tall Camila began to examine every inch of her familiar skin, the deep curves and contours swelling under the dum glimmer of moonlight
"On your knees, hands behind your back!"
Lauren hesitated.. mistakingly.. too entranced in the firm tone below realising of her mishap quickly as the younger reached forward for her throat pulling her close into her body with a firm grip forcing Lauren's eyes to roll back into her head with gently parted lips.. she was loving every second drinking it up like she and Camila had really gone through the efforts of making up a real contract.. make believe was just as fun
"I said! On your fucking knees!"
"Yes Miss Cabello"
She let go of her throat roughly allowing the elder to sink down as directed with her hands quickly shifting behind her back subtly gasping to herself as the realisation of her fantasies coming to life fogged her busy brain, Camila stepped back admiring the power she had.. lusting over how grateful she was of Lauren's little idea..
"Another rule, you don't touch me unless I tell you too! If you do.. I'll punish you! Understand?"
"Yes Miss Cabello"
Her submissive tone was entrancing.. captivating.. it trembled and shook so desperately already showing just how turned on this whole play was getting her.. Lauren squirmed slightly as she bit down onto her lip swallowing harshly as the wetness between her thighs began to grow.. she could feel it escaping it's usual spot in ways she'd never experienced..
Camila began dragging her own panties down the lengths of her thighs, discarding them across the room before stepping forward to grab a large chunk of the girls hair pulling it backwards harshly as she direct her centre only an inch from the girls mouth.. a motion that usually would have been taken hungrily but Lauren's submission meant.. no touching
"Good girl... look.. but don't touch"
She hissed stepping a little closer now only millimetres from her girlfriends lips, her own wet core more than appetising as Lauren let out a breathy half hooded moan.. those words smashing around her head like a bellowing firework display, Camila smirked..
"You like that? You like it when I call you a good girl Lauren?"
"Yes Miss Cabello!"
She trembled gripping hard around her wrist that sat behind her back in obedience hating how wet she had already became as the familiar sight of her girlfriends core sat directly in front of her lips
"Tell me! Tell me that you like it!"
"I like it when you call me your good girl Miss Cabello! I - I love it!"
Her statement was followed with weakly closing eyes, every inch of her body falling into a deep tingle she was newly growing to love.. it was like being turned on exhilarated a million times over.. she only kicked herself for not asking to try sooner..
"Good! You're doing great so far.. I know how badly you want to eat me out right now.. I can see it in your eyes!"
"I really do Miss Cabello.. So f- fucking badly"
Camila smirked as she watched Lauren's eyes trained against her dripping centre, the lust in her orbs so evident it was almost hard not to give in and drag her head into the pulsing area.. but this wasn't how it worked..
"Eyes up! Keep them up!"
Lauren obeyed lifting her eyes with licking lips trying with every fibre in her body not to look back down at the appetising sight.. it was irresistible at the best of times.. but now more than ever as her girlfriend was fulfilling her wildest fantasy..
Camila decided best to up the antics as Lauren had always been seemingly good at following orders.. she was naturally obedient... so to make this fun she'd really have to push the tease of driving her insane.. she spread her thighs exposing more of her wetness in front of Lauren's face expecting her to look down in wonder... she did.. it was a small glance but it was there.. a mistake.. a punishable.. mistake... within seconds the grip in her hair resolved and her body paced back.. a stern look plastered across her face
"Stand up! Now!"
"Yes Miss Cabello! I'm sorry! I didn't mean to look I-
"Bend over the side of the couch, head down! Spread your legs!"
Her tone was sharp! Unmistakably harsh, Lauren issued the same 'yes Miss Cabello' in response before smirking into the position demanded, she lent her elbows down onto the couch dipped her head and spread her ivory thighs, Camila followed behind standing just shy of the exposed cheeks gasping at the wet folds so blatantly on display.. it was probably the most attractive sight she'd ever seen..
"I told you not to look back down! You did! So now I'm going to punish you! And you're going to take it! Count with me"
"Y- Yes Miss Cabello"
Lauren felt the warm palm gently stretch over her right ass cheek, the sensation forcing her lower lip into her mouth as a tight squeeze was followed quickly by a harsh slap, a sting intense yet pleasurable as her hips buck forwards into the club
"Count!"
Camila demand leaving her hand where it had landed while Lauren tried to regain her poise, her gaping mouth shutting slightly as she uttered out a weak entranced
"One"
Another harsh slap landed
"T-Two"
She almost moaned counting out her punishment not realising her own arousal so intense it had began to run down her ivory inner thigh.. Camila had more than noticed and found it more than sexy as she herself captured her lip between her teeth... the slapping continued, both pleasurable and painful.. exactly the way Lauren had desired.. she did wrong.. so she was being punished
"N-Nine! Fuck!"
"Ten!"
She gasped out as the last slap landed, the firm grip in her hair returning as she felt her head being yanked back up to stand flush with Camila's body, her warm pelvis pressing into her back while a hand attach to the front of her throat grabbing with a force that force a shiver down into her spine
"Good girl!"
Was all Camila spoke before dragging her spare hand over the girls naked abdomen tracing small lines across the line in which her panties usually sat before sinking two hot digits between her ridiculously wet centre
"Mmm.. you're so so.. fucking wet Lauren.. you like being punished huh?"
"Y- Yes Miss Cabello!"
Lauren's head grew heavy.. she'd never felt so turned on in her life and with the new contact between her thighs every motion felt like sharp shards of electric.. this was everything and more than she had expected.. Camila also was unbelievably good at the whole Dom thing.. it wasn't too much of a surprise however as her fingers began to circle at her clit
"Another rule.. you do not under any circumstances cum unless I tell you that you can! Do you understand?"
With the fingers between her thighs formulating a response was proving rather difficult as Lauren bit down with a harsh force against her lip, the pressure building in her stomach like a deep tangling knot
"Don't make me punish you again Lauren! Answer my fucking question!"
"Y-yes Miss Cabello! I understand fuck!"
She moaned heavily dropping her head back into the younger girls shoulder before feeling the slender fingers dip down against her entrance, no time wasted as those same digits slip harshly inside of her body sending a large shock wave soaring through her system.. one she'd never in her life felt to be so intense..
"Oh my fucking god!"
"You like that Lauren? You like it when my fingers are inside of you?"
"Uhh shit! Yes Miss Cabello fuck!"
Her raspy moan called flooding the room with a forceful huff as the sound of her dripping wetness slapped around the younger Latina's digits, her knees already buckling as she felt herself growing close.. she'd been wet for so long and the authoritative tone only add to the painful throb
"I'm so close Uhh... I don't know if I can-
"You cum when I tell you to! Not before!"
Camila snapped gripping harder around the girls throat as her naked body press into her back, she was more than loving this new power and evidently so was Lauren as her moans began to fall incoherent, every thrust of the fingers below slamming her into a mindless world of pleasure, every ounce of her soul going into holding back the wanted high
"You're such a good girl Lauren... and your pussy feels so good right now.. fuck..."
She spoke before abruptly pulling her needed digits from inside of the girls body eliciting a strong frustrated groan as Lauren's feet began to furiously shuffle below, the grip around her neck however not allowing her to look down!
"Suck!"
Camila spat lifting the soaked digits against the girls lips lavishing in the way her hungry mouth lapped back every inch of her own arousal.. each digit perfectly clean as they fell to grab harshly at her breast, her nipples clenched between two fingers forcing her body to jerk back into Camila's
"Tell me what you want Lauren!"
"I want you! M-Miss Cabello!"
She shot desperately unable to still her feet as hard as she was trying...
"Not specific enough! Tell me what you want or I'm not going to touch you again!"
"F-Fuck! I want your f-fingers.. inside.. I wanna c-cum Miss Cabello! Please!"
Camila bit down against Lauren's earlobe running her hot tongue over the crook of her neck before placing her lips beside her ear to speak
"Good.... girl!"
Her seductive tone rasped eliciting another moan before the fingers happily returned.. Lauren didn't know how to feel about it however as she was already so close.. just a single thrust could send her spiralling over the edge.. but as Camila had said.. she could only cum when told to..
The fingers sank back into her core gaining a firm pace as the arousal began to flood around her digits for a second time, her own moans escaping her mouth as she noticed Lauren's palms digging harshly into her thighs holding back the orgasm that would eventually rip through her body like an angry tornado..
"You want to cum Lauren?"
"Y-Yes Miss Cabello! Please!"
She begged, her forehead wet with a sheen of sweat as she clamped her fingernails down into her ivory thighs, every inch of her body tending unable to maintain the control.. even her knees began to give way.. the only saving grace the grip around her throat
"Beg me! Beg me to let you cum Lauren! Beg me like the good girl you are!"
"Please! Please I need to cum! I can't hold on anymore please! Fuck! Please Miss Cabello!"
Camila bit down onto her lip lavishing in the raspy cry that left Lauren's mouth, every part of her body shaking uncontrollably as she moved her mouth back over against her ear
"I give you permission! Cum Lauren! Now!"
Lauren finally let go at those fateful words, her mental game pausing as she felt the orgasm rip a giant gash against her body, the previously busy brain now flush with a white sensation.. completely blank in her high that had hit her like a truck.. she said it a lot but she had never came this hard in her life before.. a gush of wetness cost her girlfriends palm that still thrust inside of her while her screams bellowed out into the room, it didn't happen just once however.. she came seconds later again.. and then again.. and then again.. one after the other ripping through her soul before her body completely gave way.. Camila caught her sitting behind her body as she sank her head back into her shoulder unable to speak..
Not a single word left her lips and Camila knew exactly why.. she'd read about it enough... she quickly reach into Lauren's hand tangling their pinky fingers indicating the game was up before planting a heavy kiss into the side of her sharp jaw, her chest pounding and her legs shaking out of control..
"W-What j-just happened.. how did I..."
"It's called subspace.. you get so entranced in being submissive that your mind overwhelms with pleasure.. you forget where you are.. who you are.. just highs.. until your body is too exhausted to hold on..."
Camila spoke explaining what had just happened as her girlfriend lay in her arms completely spent.. their little fantasy playing out better than either could have wished.. it was for sure something they'd be doing again by all accounts...
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A few days had last and it was a day ordinary on the off, Camila and Lauren graced the halls of Karla HQ while Fallon demand slim bodies around in expensive dresses, each moment passing by even more normal than ever.. no drama no complications..
"Hey baby, your phone.."
Camila spoke lifting the device placed delicately across her desk noticing the screen to be lit up with her grandmothers contact, she never rang unless it was an emergency so Lauren's strides quickly followed to pick up placing the cold glass against her ear with a furrowed brow
"Abuelita is everythi- what? Seriously! No! No I won't!"
The conversation was rather abrupt and mainly consisted of Lauren saying no not a chance with an angered glare that left Camila twirling the tips of her hair around her fingertips looking on cautiously, after a few moments the phone slammed down into the desk with rolling eyes while Lauren's previously beaming smiled faded into a weak humming rage
"Words?"
"My mom turned up at my grandmas! She wants to talk to me!"
Lauren husked leaving Camila leaning back in the chair behind watching her toned body become hostile, the strain in the side of her neck visible even with the thick mounds of hair brushing over her shoulders
"Maybe you should go? You don't have any shoots?"
"I don't want to talk to her Camila! You saw how she spoke to me the other day!"
Camila rose from her seat pacing towards the flee with an extended arm that brush over her hand as she clasp her jaw to stare directly into the wondering green eyes hoping for every piece of her attention as she knew herself how distressing the interaction had been
"I know! But that was pretty heated.. hearing her out could help.. you know with those feelings in there..."
She spoke softly pointing at the girls stomach as the eyes followed down with a deep huffing sigh, the relaxing of her arms settling and indicating her thoughts running over the possibility of upping and actually conversing with her mother..
"She's just gonna put me down.."
"Maybe she won't? Maybe she wants to apologise but you'll never know unless you go.. try.."
Lauren pondered on the thought for a few more moments while her girlfriend tend to the altercation just outside of her door, she packed her bag and wrapped her jacket over her shoulders before plodding along the hot concrete Miami had to offer, every stride filling her stomach with a pending anxiety that took her directly up towards her grandmas apartment knocking gently over the wood before being greeted in
"Mija, you came.. she's just through there.."
The elderly woman spoke with a fragile tone knowing how intense this conversation would be.. Lauren braced herself with a heavy armed breath, as if a wash of armour had fit flush over her body before walking into the lounge greeted only with those painfully familiar eyes, the same eyes that had vowed to forget of the very woman's existence
"Lauren, you came? Come, sit we need to talk"
"I'll stand! What do you want"
She growled unashamedly already brush with her guard up as she remain stood behind one of the couches gripping onto it with a harsh passion the woman in front immediately recognised from when she was younger
"Let's not be stubborn Lauren! Come on, words!"
"I'm not a fucking child! Tell me why you dragged me here so I can leave already!"
Her grandma left the room behind her feeling as if she was intruding as Clara raised her unexpected brow, the harsh tone and quality of aggression sitting in her daughters chest one she didn't appreciate nor want to tolerate
"Lower your tone NOW! I asked you here to talk like adults so pull yourself together and act like one!"
"I'll act how I please! Talk! Go! I'm listening!"
She growled again pressing the pads of her fingertips deep into the couch cushion below her while the toes of her sneakers burry themselves under the bottom of the seat as if planting herself to the spot to avoid leaping forwards with a deathly grip, Clara huffed out with a brief pause before combing back a few stray hairs from over her cheeks
"Fine! Me and your father think it's best you move back across town! Drop all of this modelling nonsense! It has messed with your head! Look at you.. shouting and screaming like a child!"
Lauren's jaw immediately fell open, hung almost to the floor as an earth shattering gasp tumble from her glossy lips, every fibre of her being trained on the untameable emotion of offended rage, none of this was 'nonsense' was messing with her brain, in fact it was harbouring it in the most beautiful way imaginable.. it was helping her to grow..
"Not a chance! You know that shit is so out of pocket even for you! Isn't the reason you got rid of me in the first place because you couldn't handle me? What now you suddenly want me back because I'm successful?"
"Lauren we didn't get rid of you! We let grandma take care of you while you sorted yourself out! Calmed down a little! You just never came home that was your choice!"
Clara spoke firmly folding her arms over as she paced across the room standing thankfully across the other side of the couch as her daughters dark brows furrowed into oblivion, the tremble in her angered chest beating a dark shadow against her urging soul
"Because you didn't fucking want me mom! You couldn't accept the fact that I was a little different! You thought shipping me off across the city would change me! Make me normal! But I will never be fucking normal!"
Lauren raised her voice in a volume that she only assumed the surrounding tenants to hear, it held such a force and gravity that even the rumble in her chest began to pain, she was getting slightly emotional and with every passing word a lump began to form like a solid rock in the base of her throat
"You never gave normal a chance Lauren! You just kept doing what you were doing expecting the world to change around you! Maybe if you focused on acting like everyone else around you, you wouldn't need to have stayed away!"
Clara spat back with an equally as raised tone, the anger and aggression in her voice only adding to Lauren's impending explosion, every ounce of her body down to the blood pumping through her veins began to boil, shooting pains escaping through her fingertips that had now let go of the flush couch cushions
"IM AUTISTIC MOM! IM FUCKING AUTISTIC! I can't be normal! I can't keep my hands still, I can't work in a social setting and I fucking hate eye contact! Shipping me across the city won't change those things! The things you were supposed to fucking love about me!"
Her throat burned at the outburst, the fibres surrounding her voice box straining as she slammed her fists down into the hard top of the couch, tears glazing her usually perfect emerald orbs while Clara only shook her head with hands planted firmly over her hip bones, each escaping word like a tormenting taunt filled with a deadly venom
Her hot panting breath filled the painful silence as her mother paced the room some more, eyes darting dangerously around as she tried to simmer her undeserved rage towards her daughter, the crack in her voice ignored as if possessing a heart made completely from stone
"That's it! Blame us! Blame us for everything wrong with you Lauren, just like you always used to do! You know I came all this way to try and settle our relationship but you're too immature to even do that! You're not a model Mija! You're a product of somebodies fantasies!"
"I do blame you! With every fibre of my fucking being I blame you! I'm not broken! I'm special! I'm beautiful and I deserve more than your relationship! I didn't ask you to come here mom, nobody did! Even if I am just part of her fantasies at least that means I'm worth something! Worth the second thought! But she loves me and nothing you can say will EVER change that!"
Lauren called back straining every muscle in her throat as she did so not wasting a single breath that could be better used to fight back her battle, every word hurt, every thought traumatising but this was a conversation that had been long awaited.. years had passed with these feelings so it only felt right to extinguish them
"You're not capable of understanding these emotions Lauren and you know it! That is exactly why you need to come home with me, today! Enough of this pouring your heart out to some woman who is using you for her own profit!"
Clara spoke pacing around the couch to grab Lauren by the wrist only to have it forcefully yanked away like a taught fishing line, each expression on her face wildly disturbed as she backed herself into the wall, her chest tightening intensely with a burn so deep it felt physically draining
"I am not going anywhere with you! You're a sick twisted bitch who can't love her own child for being different! I never needed you! I never even wanted you! I fucking hate you!"
Lauren screamed from the back of her throat falling into a heavy cry that was less sad and more angry, what she hadn't noticed however in her glassy rage was the slender woman stood leaning against the doorway now pacing heavily into the room with folded, deep black eyes.. filled with an entangling grief that left her fighting back her own overwhelmed state
"You know your daughter is one of the most talented, smartest girls I have ever met! Even amongst the crazy rich trained professionals I hire she... she has a brain more incredible than your bitter tasting tongue could ever imagine..."
Camila began in the calmest voice heard all day pacing into the woman who had devilishly implanted herself within the elders mind, Lauren's grandma behind only now seeing the utter power that oozed from the tiny Latina's stature, her true business ego flooding the floor in the most intimidating way imaginable sending Clara waking backwards in retaliation to her strides
"The only 'problem' with her diagnosis is YOU Clara... she's perfect in every fucking which way and actually holds more grace than 99% of the people walking this planet! You may think I'm in this for the money or the glory but truth is? I had that shit under lock WAY before I set eyes on Lauren! I love her, with every part of my soul.. those big green eyes tell stories to the world in ways you should be proud of.."
She continued now backing the woman into the wall pausing her strides as she gulped back on her silent breath, each shallow hum of her beating heart falling into a quivering mess while the shorter girl stood somehow so tall in front, the burn elicited through those brown orbs like tiny blades pinning her head back against the wall
"But you don't love her.. you're not proud of her! It's ok though.. because she doesn't need you! Not even a little bit! I know that because I grew up without a mom too! I didn't need her either! I raised my fucking self! Told my self I was beautiful, told myself that I was special! But Lauren doesn't need to tell herself that because I will! Every fucking day if I need to! So really you don't even need to be here right now! Or ever actually!"
She spat finalising her rant as Lauren's small whimpers could be heard from across the room now embraced by her grandma who had happily let her honoured granddaughter take the floor in Lauren's defence, Clara gulped back sinking her eyes only briefly into the floor before returning them back up to the threatening eyes in front
"If I leave now I will never return, you're really willing to cut her own mother from her life?"
"Moms are overrated! Now get the fuck out! You're welcome has thoroughly been over stayed!"
Clara shoved from in front of the young girls body leaving her stood staring for a moment at the wall before turning to watch her hasty walk, Lauren's grandma however grabbing her wrist one the way out to speak one final statement
"You are no daughter of mine Clara!"
That was it.. she was gone! Camila's gaze turned to Lauren who had a heartbreaking expression plastered over her delicate weak features, as if her whole world had crumbled before her, she didn't even see nor notice Camila walking into her place as she closed her eyes as if frozen to the spot, her fists tight and her arms rigid to the touch
"Lauren? Baby it's ok she's gone now?"
"You knew!"
Lauren muttered refusing to open her eyes as doing so meant looking at the woman in front.. facing the reality that she was aware of the very thing she had been hiding for months.. it was an innocent lie but now she realised that it was no more.. Camila knew
"Yeah.. I knew but, Lauren I love you ok? That doesn't matter to me?"
"You knew! You knew! You fucking knew!"
She repeated over and over as her head fell down, her eyes dipping into the floor with tears dropping beside her feet, Camila gulped back reaching to touch upon her shoulder noticing the way she just back in response wrapping her own arms around her back as she sank down into the floor like a child suffering a break down, every muscle in her body collapsing as Camila issued a side glance to the elderly woman who had met her fall from her grip
"Lauren, I knew yes! Fallon told me because I wanted to understand you a little better? Now I do! And I love you so fucking much! Nothing will ever change that do you understand me?"
Camila plead as she also sank down to her knees making sure to keep a reasonable distance from the girl knowing physical contact wasn't something she wanted right now.. she had to respect that.. The elderly woman quickly ran into the kitchen as if on a mission while Lauren whimpered into her knee caps
"This doesn't define you Lauren? You're beautiful.. your mind is beautiful! Please just let me see your eyes.. come on.."
Her soft voice echoed as finally the green eyes peered from over her knees looking more fragile than she'd ever seen before, each spec of the features glistening with a fresh sheen of tears, her fingertips gripping back and forth over her calves before taking a long drawn out breath
"There they are.."
Camila smiled tenderly as she notice a shaking manicured hand reaching across the floor willing to give up a single touch as the younger only placed her palm on top, her thumb gently brushing over the soft skin below in attempts not to overwhelm her even more than she already was
"She doesn't matter Lauren! Not even a little bit! Nothing she tells you is true.. she's a bratty troubled lady that doesn't have anything interesting to say.. you matter though! In every way!"
Lauren nod back as if learning a teachable lesson, the way her legs relaxed and her head lift indicating to her girlfriend that things were going to be ok, nothing that seemed to happen in their lives ever held a constant dwell, and after a few moments the elderly woman returned, a hot coco in hand ready for Lauren to take, she placed it down by her side before brushing her fingertips through the thick locks of hair
"I raised you my child, I know you! I see you! Focus on this girl because she loves you with her entire heart! Don't focus on the people who don't understand you!"
"I love you Camz"
She spoke finally before crawling from in her spot, her legs reaching to sit in the younger girls lap while her arms wrap around the back of her neck sinking her forehead down into her warm shoulder, Camila soothed her ache running her palms over her back accepting the moment of peace with a heavy sigh
"I love you more beautiful! More than anything!"