i've never thought about it, but...yeah
1. I listen to almost everything she says
2. i've never talken back rudely in my whole life
3. she expects me to be like my sister(be smart, goody-two-shoes, etc)
4. i'm afraid and traumatized of the times she hit me because of my bad habits and the one time i was wrongly accused of stealing money
5. she's scary
6. my dad's scary and he always tells me to listen to mom
7. i have cameras watching me
8. i want to be better than my sister
9. i want the love/attention
10. i don't know what my actual characteristics are anymore
11. i rely too much on people to make decisions for myself
12. i hate letting people down
13.i'm afraid that she'll cut me completely off from the internet
14. i over think
15. i try to overachive
16. i honestly don't want to live as me anymore so don't care much
17. i think that if i didn't have my bad habits when i was young, my mom would treat me like my sister
18. i hate myself
19. i want her to treat me like my sister
20. i hate the screentime thing on my phone and i have to be on good terms with my parents to disable it(yet i can't even ask)
21. i don't want her to dislike/hate me
22. i've never spoken my opinions
23. as a people pleaser, i never think about my opinions so i can think more flexibly
24. habits are harder to break than my bones :(
25. people raising their voices are scary
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