Sonder

Getting High on the Coast

Ryder texts me that he's in the front, I get up and walk out the living room with Nico following behind me. He pulls me into the hallway kissing me, "I cant get enough of you" he says between kisses, I break away shortly saying that I gotta go. 

"Where you going?" He asks

"With Ryder" I tell him

He scratches the back of his neck and walks back into the living room.

Ryder's p.o.v

"Can I borrow your car?" I ask odee 

"yea ofc" she tells me

I drive around for a while and go to the park where I asked her out. My mind begins to flood with memories of her. The dates, the laughs, the arguments, every memory we shared. I'm starting to feel overwhelmed with this emotion that I haven't felt in a long time, worthlessness. Luckily I see a skatepark nearby. I skate for a few hours, taking my mind off her. Ridding her from my mind. Just me and my board. 

I decide to drive near her house, it being the last thing I wish to never see again. The tears start to prick the brim of my eyes, I take a deep breath in and they disappear.  I park near a store and go through my camera roll. Erasing anything that is left of her. I go to my contacts and hesitate to delete her number, I finally pressed the red letters and she was officially gone. I text Odee if she wants to hang. She doesn't respond which is a little weird because she usually responds to my texts in a heartbeat. I drive back to the house, putting on some loud music so I don't think about her. Keeping my mind occupied with music I failed to notice that I had passed the house twice. Pulling up to the front door I text her that I'm here. 

She comes out with a big smile, skipping towards me. She gets in and hugs me and asks where to?

"You'll see" is all I say

[back to odee]

I skip towards him with a smile, I enter the car through the passenger window. I crawl in and give him a big hug. We sit in silence for a little and then burst out laughing, "so what was the reason for the window entrance" he asks. I just shrug and let out a little laugh. We sit in silence again and  he seems a bit off or bothered by something so I ask him, where we're going in hopes of disrupting his thoughts. "you'll see" is all he says, we begin to drive and I fall asleep. I wake up to some music, I stretch and look out the window and see the ocean, I roll the window down and stick half my body out. "I FUCKING LOVE YOU RYDER!!!" I yell out. I get back in the car and kiss him on the cheek. "I know you do" He says with a smile "And hopefully you always will" he says the last part under his breath but I still heard him. I dont say anything. He slows the car down and we pull over. "You know where we are?" He asks. Of course I remember I think to myself, "Yea its where we came the first night we moved in together" I say. We climb over the railing and down some rocks and sit down. Ryder stares out at the ocean, I lean my head on his shoulder. He looks down at me and kisses the top of my head. "Are you okay?" I ask. His face goes blank and his eyes are blank, emotionless. "no" he whispers. He turns and hugs me hard, I begin rubbing his back while running my hand through his hair. I feel him crying, "Im sorry she did this to you Ry" I whisper. "I love you and always will, I will be there for you no matter what, ok?" I tell him. He just nods his head. 

He pulls a joint out his pocket and starts to smoke it, he tries to pass it to me but I decline. He needs it more than I do. Time passes and he's smoked three joints already, Ryder is gone. "Ryder, let's go home" I nudge his shoulder, "yea" is all he says. I put him in the car and drove back to the house. Checking the time its 4 am and our flight to Japan leaves at 10am.  6 hours of sleep it is. I pull up to the house, we get out the car and we go into his room. I go into his bathroom to wash my face, I come out and he's sitting at the edge of the bed looking down. I walk towards him and he looks up at me, eyes glossy. Right before I go into hug him, he pulls me by the waist and pulls me onto his lap. He hugs me hard wile crying into my chest, I don't have the heart to tell him that he's squeezing me, so I just rub his back. I pull his head back and look into his eyes "Everything is going to get better" I smile and tell him. He stares at me for a quick second before smashing his lips against mine. It's been long since I felt his lips against mine. I run my fingers in his hair, the kiss gets a little heated while he is now laying on his back and I'm hovering over him. He leans up and takes his shirt off while still kissing me. "Wait Ryder, are you sure? Don't do this because you're hurt" I tell him. "You're right, I'm sorry" He says while getting up and putting sweatpants on. I take my sweats off and get under his covers, he gets under them also and takes my hand with his. We fall asleep on our backs, holding hands. Out of nowhere, "She didn't love me" Ryder says but pauses, "And thats ok" he finishes. I turn towards him and kiss his forehead "I love you" I whisper. "I love you too" he whispers back. 

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