so today i found out that my crush lives in the neighborhood across from mine. okay dude.
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violet 》》
we haven't spoken since the kiss.
It is February 15th and I still haven't talked to him. Not at school, not outside of school. Nothing. He hasn't climbed through my window and I haven't climbed through his.
This is weird.After we kissed on new years eve, I regretted it. Everything was so perfect and friendly with Matt before, but it's just awkward when we pass each other in the halls.
It's not that I didn't like kissing him, because I liked it a lot, we just kept kissing afterward and getting more heated when we are legitimately only friends.I'm always afraid that Matt is going to flash one of those I've-Seen-You-In-Your-Most-Vulnerable-State looks that I hate. I hate feeling like I'm not in control, but it happens way more than I would like.
So here I am, sitting at my desk in math class, and being terrified that Matt might talk to me this time.
This is kind of my daily routine now;
Wake up, Worry about Matt, Go to school, See Matt, Come home from school, Worry that he might walk through my window today.I hate awkward conversations and awkward things in general, and I know if he talks to me, all I will be thinking about is how he slid his hand up my shirt and grabbed my waist on New Years Eve.
Ugh, I can't be here any longer or I might throw up. "Mr. Willard?" I raise my hand, "Can I go to the restroom?"
"I don't know, can you?" He says and laughs at his own joke, before signaling that I can go.And just my luck, as I'm heading back from the bathroom, Matthew is doing something in his locker that is right outside the classroom.
Think, Violet. Should I just walk past him? No that would make everything more awkward. What should I do?!
The last thing I want to do right now is talk to him. Okay, I have an idea.I run to the school office before Matt can see me. "Uh, excuse me?" I say, trying to get the middle aged woman's attention.
"Yes?" she questions.
"Um yes hi. There was a small crisis at home and I really need to leave right now." I said really fast.
"Sorry, but you cannot leave early unless a parent picks you up."
"Yeah I know, my mom is right there." I pointed towards a car with an older woman and waved, she waved back because that's what old ladies do.
"Then I suppose you can go.. I will inform your teachers of your absence."
"Thank you so much!" I yell while running out the door.Instead of getting in that one lady's car, I pulled out my phone and earbuds and blared music while I walked home.
I walk in my house, and of course my mom wants to know why I'm back so early, "I got really sick and threw up. They said that I could come home." I lied, walking up to my bedroom.
"Okay, well tell me if you need anything! I'm going to the grocery so you're home alone until I get back."
"Okay, Mom!"I hear the door open and close and the car start as it pulls out of the driveway.
I pull out my laptop and, as usual, watch movies/TV shows that have Aaron Tveit in them. You see, Idina Menzel and Aaron Tveit are my favorite people in the world because, I may not come off as one, but I am a huge musical theatre fan. like HUGE. like I have a collection of playbills that take up a whole wall in my room huge.
Anyways, Aaron Tveit. If you don't know who he is, he is a very attractive broadway/non broadway actor who has the voice of a kajillion tiny little angels.
Then, I get a text from Matt: Heyy... Um can we talk? Starbucks maybe? I don't like not talking to you...
So I responded: Sure, I'll be there in 15 minutes...
Then I plugged my phone in to charge as I change out of my formerly changed into sweats.
I grab my phone and keys and head out the door.
- s t a r b u c k s -
I walk in and Matt is already at a booth in the back corner. I wave, order my drink, and sit down with him until my drink is called.
"Violet, I am so sorry... I didn't mean to do it but it just kinda did and I don't think you understand how sorry I am." He rambled as he apologized.
"Matt, I- can we just forget about this? Please? Everything is just so awkward and I don't want it to be so just don't talk about it. It never happened, okay?"
"What never happened?"
"Matt, the ki- oh you sly dog."
"The main reason we are friends, is because you just said 'sly dog'" he laughs at me.
Phew, I'm glad this is in the past.
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OKAY STORY TIME AND I DOUBT YOU WANT TO HEAR IT BUT IVE HAD THIS CHAPTER READY FOR A WHILE AND I THOUGJT I UPLOADED IT BUT I DIDNT AND IM SORRY DONT HATE ME I LOVE YOU
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nightlight / / matt
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