I'm slipping
Back into my old habits.
Farther and farther
I fall.
The old Me,
The Me that I've been
Pushing away
For so long,
Is coming back.
I don't want
The old Me back.
That Me
Wasn't healthy,
Wasn't happy,
Didn't care.
It's all a struggle.
Eating,
Talking,
Caring,
Trying.
They're all supposed to be easy.
But now,
They're getting harder
For me to do.
I don't laugh
The way I used to.
My smile
Doesn't meet my eyes
It scares me,
How I'm changing.
Transforming
Into the Me that I hate.
I'm on the edge.
And soon, I'll slip
And fall for real.
