Healing

Week 1

His is the first day.... I'm tired... I'm sleep deprived. I tried to find an easy way out a week ago... didn't go so well. Ummm not really a god believer... but I think it was him telling me to stay... so I will. In that week... i realized no one even cared to see how I was doing... I'm hurt.. I'm not gonna lie.

But... I told everyone on my friends what happened. No one cares! No one asked me how I was doing. Or if I wanted to talk... except for one... Isa I'm sorry. I know you kept calling and texting me... I'm sorry to you. Sorry for pushing you away. I know you love me... I love you too..,. But I'm a coward... I realized that.

And to everyone. I'm... upset at you. Im angry... but mostly at myself... idk how to feel.. you never texted me in that week... or even asked how I was doing... and that broke me cause you said you cared. But you don't. Not even one "Hey". Nothing. I helped you but you didn't help me? Hhh. This is so messed up man. I know I'm an asshole. I admit to everything I am. But you DONT. You don't take fault of your own actions. I hope you do see this. Cause I want to talk. I want to talk to you and tell me what you REALLY thing about me now. Because I want to tell you how I REALLY feel too. I won't get mad. And I hope you don't too. But I'm upset.

So Dear diary,

This is my 1st week of healing.