Gray Clouds

Chapter 13

School goes into motion. Janis and David come to visit me often and we hang out.

My parents don't ask about me and David anymore. I feel like they are probably imagining me and David as just friends and nothing happening while me and him are together. They are definitely wrong on that.

Me and David are falling more in love everyday. He is like that first ray of sunshine of spring, hitting a hibernating flower petal. He makes me feel like the world is all mine and I can take on anything by his side. Never in my life have I felt the love and strength of another person as much I have felt with David. If there really is a God, David is the embodiment of it.

It is sad that none of our parents accepted us. I guess gay people are scared to come out into the world and are afraid to show who they really were. I hope one day there is be a gay couple walking around the mall or two women holding hands without getting discriminated. To one day see ourselves belong in a community, a family, society. To finally be inside, instead of always looking in. To have the states accept gay marriage or even have a gay president.

Me and David really aren't the attention kind. Mostly because we are both very much aware of the current situation that we faced. We limit our emotions to only holding hands in private or when he drives. We only kiss when no one is around. I like those moments the best. Being exposed makes me vulnerable. Being alone with him feels like time and space freezes and I can show my love for David and not fear about a negative outcome.

Me and Janis have an easy year ahead of us as most of our classes are together. I know that seeing David is a thing I am going to miss him while I eat lunch by the grass. I won't be able to see him walk to class with his cute little bag. I know we is having a better time at Mountain View. Those students can leave whenever, eat wherever and do basically what they want and no one says anything about it.

Part of me gets jealous as I know that since everyone in David's school is older, there can be a closeted man looking for a reason to come out and they can see my beautiful boyfriend as that vessel.

Janis stops me when I become possessive.

"He's not out there cheating on you or lying to your back." she says as sat on the benches. "You just have that Scorpio jealousy, besides David is always home with Emma and if he's ever in public, he's with you and me." she reassures me.

"Listen, if there was ever a doubt in my mind that he was slowly changing, I'd be the first to notice and I would be the first to demand answers" she finishes as she ate her veggie sandwich.

David never got to experience a separate lunch at Lincoln and it is glorious. Most seniors go to fast food places to get their lunch or take advantage to leave early. Me and Janis do the latter one and would just take naps in her house, just in time to stay for the after school theater shows with energy.

Still, life for now goes in a path that I can see and take control over. I have to enjoy it, as I never have much of that.