Empty room

It was May when I saw him and fell in his eyes...
I was scared to look at him, I was very nervous  when he was around me, butterflies were in my belly, I couldn't walk normally.
Summer came and school was over. Nothing changed , we even didn't talk to each other, but I only knew that he was the one.
This summer went very quickly by thinking of him and oh I didn't have a good photo of him, but still  he was in my mind every time, I imagined how we were together very happy.
Finally  September came and I was very excited it was the time after very hot summer when I would see him.
School started and nothing was happening , he ignored me all the time and that broke my heart.
Days went and I was alone... not friends, not my ,,best friends" and not even him...
I was stressed, my grades went lower and lower all the time,  no one understood me, but after all that things I still had a little hope in my heart that one day I would be the happiest girl with me.
November came, we had a late halloween school party, everyone was in costume but not me, because I wasn't in that mood.
Suddenly I saw him and started to smile because, he was goofing around and in that moment he looked at me and smiled.
My heart exploded.
I wanted to cry, but I couldn't people would stare at me.
After the party everything started to go well, we had an eye contacts, we smiled at each other and etc.
But that one day came when I first talked to him, it was weird conversation, but I didn't care because I was talking to him.
I thought was very well, but that didn't go too long.
My gray life started again from nowhere, he knew about my feelings.
Nothing happened until that awful day when he came to me and said, how he didn't care about me and how he was making fun of me.
There was tears on my face, I couldn't stand or breathe, he didn't know how much he meant  to  me.
I loved more than everything. He was the one.
Without any thinking  I told him in his face about my feelings, I told him everything, I told him how broken I was  and how he made me happy when he first smiled at me.
I started to cry more, I thought he would think about this, but he started to laugh and left...
My heart stopped...
I was on the ground and nobody wanted to help me...
Ball was in my throat, I couldn't talk and asked for help.
After that I became a doll without feelings but with a little other world where I was the happiest person.
I just lived and cried about myself...
how poor I was, how loser I was... I didn't go to school for a weeks, I was at house, in my room, I was crying and listening to music.
My heart was bitting without love.
I was still alone in my empty room.

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