Illegal love

chapter 1

I looked at myself in the mirror.

Eyes full of pain. Clothes all black.

My mind, thinking about that night.

The night i saw my mom die.

"Izzy come down stairs!" my dad yelled "I am coming" I yelled back to my dad who was eagerly waiting for me to come downstairs. Here we go again, going to that awful place. where i have no friends and no one to talk to. It wasn't always like that, 4 months ago, I had the best friends ever. But after my mom died, my friends came to visit me, I didn't wanted to see them. i told them I hated them. But did I ment it? I just want my old life back.

here i am walking trough the school halls. Hearing everyone whispering. I couldn't hear everything clearly but i just know that there talking about how much ive changed. I just walked to my locker grabbing my books for my next class. Walking and pretending I don't exist like always.

The moment i walk into class, i see my friends giving me these dead stares, again. I just walked to my seat and ignored everyone around me.

The day was actually pretty ordinary. My mind fading away to the day my mom died and what ive become after that. when suddenly the bell rang, everyone was screaming "its finally winter break". i wasn't that happy about it, I had to spend the hole day at home, with my dad he changed so much we don't even talk to each other anymore. So i'm just in my room, what mostly means I'm thinking of my mom. God i miss her so much. I packed my stuff and walked to the park where I spend the most of the time these days. I just love being alone, doing my homework and just thinking.

I sat in the park. until it was 8PM. I slowly walked home and opened the door with my keys. When i suddenly see a woman, hugging my dad. he kissed her on her for head. I stood there with tears in my eyes. when my dad looked at me and said "Its not what it looks like". I just nodded, dropped my keys and almost cried.

I ran to my bedroom. locked the door, l got on my bed and cried in my pillow and slowly falling asleep.