"Back then (Y/N). If you had the chance, would you have gone with Atsumu instead?"
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After what felt like a rather long pause, I peered up at Kita and shook my head decisively.
"No. I wouldn't have." I said with an honest expression.
Kita on the other hand stayed nonchalant, even though I very much knew he was quite surprised by my given answer.
"And why not?" He asks.
"You can't ask something like that to me... I chose you for a reason. And I never had feelings for Atsumu anyways..." I explained, "I'm sure you know how much I felt towards you — and I'm sure you know more than anyone else."
"Really now? Then if you felt that much towards me why did you break off?" He reverse-questions, argh.
I'm not sure why he chooses to ask such topics. Is it just to hurt me or to shadow cast me into a villain? This guy is a sadist, right? Oh yes, I conclude that he's definitely a sadist.
I like to think that I'm not someone that's often melancholy but when Kita interrogates me like this, I feel like some runaway criminal — so I started experiencing guilt which made me appear more suspicious than I really am. For instance, when there wasn't anything for me to fiddle with, I couldn't help but bite the inside of my cheek nervously whilst he waits for me to talk — thus making me look suspicious.
Me and Kita are two people that have known each other for probably around a decade, that's why there shouldn't be any reason for me to feel uncomfortable.
And so when two individuals have gone through a lot, they'll learn to know each other thoroughly and train to understand one another's traits or habits from their relationship. Therefore, theoretically, I should be calm and not anxious.
But that's not how it works once you meet Kita Shinsuke.
Somehow, this guy's questioning really had pressured me... Hence why I predict that for the past three years, Kita must have studied the dark arts of holding a poker face and the laws of being a big bully... Since I feel extremely attacked right now.
I go quiet and avoid all sorts of eye contact as Kita continues staring dead straight into my broken soul.
"Why did you do it (Y/N)?" He asks again.
He makes me want to scream. I want to throw something at him.
"..."
In all honesty, the reason why I didn't feel like replying was purely due to that fact I couldn't think of anything that would make sense. Although, if I stayed silent for any longer then he'd not leave this question to peace. So I had no choice but to force myself to start blabbering with no filter.
"Do you not know?" I contemptuously asked, "I did it because we grew distant. It's a very normal thing with many people."
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Youth In A Nutshell (Kita Shinsuke)
FanfictionThey didn't date until later, but she always had a crush on him since middle school, which is her most committed accomplishment to this day. She once thought of Kita and her as childhood sweethearts that would bloom into lovers eventually, gradually...