Paradox • J.Potter •

• IX •

I didn't respond to his looks nor his actions

I couldn't. I knew the minute I did I would either start to cry or get angry and start to shout at him. Which in return would lead him to shout at me and I hated when he shouted.

"How does it make you feel to see him with other girls?" Liona asks with a small hum and crosses her ankle.

I opened my mouth to reply to her before shutting it again. I had nothing to say. I had nothing I wanted to say. I certainly wasn't going to break down in this small room and cry for my feelings.

I cleared my throat and looked at the clock on the wall beside me. Then small metal hands pointing at the twelve and three.

"This has been fun but our session is over. I have somewhere to be" I hummed and stood up from the chair. I grabbed my white leather bag from the other and walked towards the door.

"Miss Scott, if I can give you a little bit of advice. Talk to him. I've seen you around the castle and it's clear you are ignoring the poor boy. From an outsiders point of view, those girls seem to cover up the fact that he misses you" I gripped the strap of my bag tighter in my hands before I pushed open the door and left the office without another word.

I was sick of talking about my feelings

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"So you have to pick! Which song would you play at your wedding!" Marlene giggles and leans back against the tree.

After the therapy session I ran straight to my dorm and sought of my girls. It didn't take much convincing for them to agree to spend the afternoon out by the lake with me. Yet even though I was with the girls, I still missed my boys.

But I didn't want to see James. I don't think I could see James in the state I was in. He was my anchor, my rock and I knew I would cave the minute I actually spoke a word to him.

"Absolutely not!" Lily laughs loudly and shakes her head. I joined in with her giggles from where my head lay off on Marlene's lap. Her thin fingers ran through my hair in a comforting manner.

"Oh come on it's actually not that hard to choose-" Marlene's sentence was cut short as her fingers stopped in the strands of me hair. I peaked my eyes open to look up at her face that was looking out at the courtyard.

"Mar? What's wrong?" I frowned and tilted my head to look towards the courtyard that obviously had the blondes attention.

"Nothing! So, Mary how's your tango with Remus?" Marlene spoke quickly and I narrowed my eyes in suspicion as her fingers continued to move thorough my hair.

"There is no bloody tango, the bloke barely knows I exist! Merlin would the boy take a hint and ask me to Hogsmede" Mary whines and from the tearing of pages I knew she had flicked through her magazine a little too hard.

"Maybe you need to stop trying so hard and just have a conversation with Moony? He really likes music" I call and hum happily at the pulling on my hair.

"I try! Every time I even get close to him I start to sweat and I barely get a sentence out. He probably thinks I'm an idiot and I'm-" Mary cuts her sentence short and I frown as to why.