Dear Draco, (Isobel's last letter to Draco)

Isobel's last letter (an extension to Dear Draco)

Dear Draco,

No love, I don't hate it when you call me my dearest darling love. But I'm sorry I couldn't stay long enough to tell you that. I'm so sorry we had so limited time together, sorry for making you love me so much and leaving just like that. For two people who started off has haters we really did fall for each other too deep don't you think? Or maybe we never really hated each other and maybe that's why we couldn't stay apart despite knowing what was coming.

The night of Christmas eve was one of the best nights of my life Draco. The lights, the cheap punch I was hungover on and London lights shimmering around us, lights in the presence of which we opened our heart to each other. Yes of course prior to that will always be the night we cuddled together in your bed. Just you and me, our own night, a world of our own.

"yours" it's so beautiful how you say that but so painful now that I'm no longer there to respond to that with a "yes mine". God, I miss you so much. That smile of yours. The way you make me feel when your lips touch mine, the way you gently kiss my earlobes giving me butterflies all over. That day, the day we were beside the great lake, the day you planned our future together in a cottage, somewhere where nobody would judge our love for each other, I have to confess Draco. I lied. At that moment I wasn't as hopeful as you were of a happy future together. Maybe a part of me always knew I wouldn't make it. Those beach walks and watching the sun dip under the ocean blue horizon. You were happy. So happy. I would give anything I have to be with you again love. Everything I have if it meant that we would be that couple dancing on that moonlit beach. Draco I'm so sorry this world is such an unfair place. I'm sorry our love fell under the category of the ones for whom happy endings don't exist.

When you asked me about that chain, how I was still wearing it. I shouldn't have shrugged it off with such a simple answer. I never took it off, yes, yes because wearing it felt like having you beside me, holding my hand, it was like feeling your touch and breathing your smell even when you were not around. I never took it off because it felt like having a part of you within me. You have my heart Draco and wearing that chain made me feel like I had yours and I wanted to protect it all cost. I'm sorry I failed. Such an irony for somebody who kept saying she could protect herself. I failed you. I failed our love. I failed my mum.

Also, could you tell my mum to take care of herself?

Hey Draco, I know there are going to be hard times and days when it's going to hurt like hell and I want you to know that even though you can't see me I'll be here honey watching over you, loving you. Good morning, I love you. Good night, I love you. But now it's time for a goodnight and goodbye. Because I know. One day you're finally going to wake up and that stone in your heart will feel lighter. Yes, I know that you don't really move on from the people you love but one day, Draco, you won't be crying in the shower. One day, just like the other days, you'll find those bobby pins of mine scattered across your room that you never brought yourself to clean up and that day you won't feel like tearing your heart apart instead you're going to laugh over how a girl can have so many bobby pins. I know there will always be this heavy feeling but you're going to find happiness Draco. The happiness that you deserve. I'm not going to let the universe take that away from you once again.

I miss you, forever, and even though I'm not there to tell you this I love you and I'll always love you, till the day I fade into oblivion. Goodbye.

Yours,

always and forever,

Belly 

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"stay a little longer"

song pairing - Hold on/chord overstreet ,   The night we met/Lord Huron 

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