hi
so i said last update that i had no other place other than wattpad to write out what i feel and feel like people are listening
well
since then, theres been an uPgrade
i have a TWITTER account now!!
but lucky for you im not gonna ask you to follow me because its a stantwt account and there are probably a lot of weirdos out there reading this [not saying yOu might be one of them.. but there cOuld potEntially be one..]
plus im also just very nervous and sensitive about things, so i cant even stand tweeting pictures i took w my new camera bc all the pictures are of my house--
also im writing this bc im on a twitter break
remember when i said i was nervous and sensitive abt things
yeah
it didnt even happen to mE but randomly coming across some things on twitter really takes a toll on me especially when it happens to someone ik [well, not knOw, but someone i interact w a lot] and its happened twice where i stay up for a long time bc im really sad and cant sleep
the two things still linger around in my head but im hoping w enough time ill forget..
but we're moving on from that
i havent been working on my stories lately
its beginning to worry me that i never feel like working on them
but at the same time i dont want to ditch them and start something else new
am i getting bored of writing?
do i still like it?
the same thing is happening with other things i used to love doing, and it might be bc of all thats going on rn..?
idk, i just dont feel like doing anything productive, i havent been practicing my cajon, viola, singing, dancing, exercising, anything
i want to find something new to do, and it might be the drums
i will say i promised an entire fandom id buy my first electric drum kit if the group i dedicated my twt account to won the music show
and
they did
[so proud]
its not like i was surprised they won, i was just suddenly reminded, oh god, i have to buy an e-drum kit now
and im really excited..?
im finally going to be trying something new
and im hoping i can pick it up quickly because i want to learn a lot of other instruments, too
guitar and the piano are the two others right now, but im sure itll branch out soon
anyway, i think this update is missing a purpose, or a theme
its just.. an update
on me
not that anyone really like
cAres
but its okay, if im getting things off my chest, it doesnt matter if anyone sees it
bc at least itll fEel like ive released it to the world and therefore released it from inside of me
and now for tradition ig
talk by keshi
not kesha
ngl i like keshi a lot more, vv precious bean
and his mUsic
and his vOice
and his personAlity
and eVEryThing
[also his new album "always" was released today, its really cool!!]
also ashton irwin from 5sos released his first solo music, his album "superbloom," also super cool and its a v personal album to him, its a journey in 10 songs
my favorites are
- SCAR [vv personal to him]
- have u found what ur looking for?
- skinny skinny [a song i resonate w a LOT] [also vv personal to him]
- sunshine
he's been through so so much and deserves the world, honestly
if anyone ever sees this and decides to check either ashton [and pls therefore 5sos] or keshi out, i hope you love their music as much as i do bc music is one of the only things that brings me happiness in the darkest of times :)
okay bye
if i lift my self-imposed ban on twt soon, it might be a while until i post here again
but if not
ill be back soon ig
bye
:)
