Back and forth|Jxdn

19💙

" Don't raise your voice at me!" I yelled.

"Then tell me because I obviously deserve an explanation!"

"I heard your argument with mads that night at the party! Happy?!" I yelled.

"What?" He whispered.

"I heard what you guys said and I don't want to interfere in your relationship anymore! I don't wanna hurt anyone because i love you both and I don't want to cause any problems" I explained.

"But - " he tried to talk but i cut him off.

"We became way too close and that was not okay! I hurt mads and I don't blame her if she hated me after knowing that I slept with you on the same bed!" I said and you can clearly hear the hurt in my voice.

"But that's not fair!" He said kinda raising his voice again. " what about me?! Im not an object i have feelings as well and im not gonna let her control my life and who i can be friends with! And it's selfish of you to take such a decision alone!" He yelled, i can see the hurt in his eyes.

"Jad- " i was gonna defend myself but he cut me off.

"No Emily you listen! Do you know how it feels to think that you did something wrong because your 'supposed to be best friend' is pushing you away! And what's even worse is that you already know that our relationship was toxic and you just decided to pull yourself out of my life even tho you know it won't do shit!" At this point i can see tears in his eyes.

"I was trying to help you both! It's not my fault my intentions were pure! I didn't want to cause any problems, you should understand how i feel jaden!" I yelled.

"You don't get to decide how i deal with my fucking shit! Im the one who decides and we're not gonna end this friendship! Not even for mads's sake!" He yelled back.

"She's gonna get hurt! She's my friend jaden" i said .

"We broke up so you don't have any excuse" he said.

"You what?!" I asked in shock. Is it because of me?! And why didn't she tell me?

"We broke up" he lowered his voice and looked down.

"When?! And why?" I asked, confusion all over my face.

"Last week" he paused for a minute " and for why, you already know the answer Emily" he said as if it was the most obvious thing in the world. Okay i know their relationship was toxic but it's been like that for the past 3 months if my information is correct, so why now??

"Because of me?" I asked looking down.

"Not everything's about you Emily!" He said in a cold tone.

"I guess you're right!" I pulled the door handle strongly and stormed out. I ran down the stairs as i was at the end I bumped into someone, I looked up and it was josh.

"Hey slow down baby!" He chuckled and pulled me into a hug, not your time josh! Not your time at all. I didn't hug back obviously and i just looked at him.

" don't call me baby ever again!" I said and walked past him, I walked to the front door and as i was closing it I heard people talk.

"What's wrong with her?"
"White claws did her bad"
"Watch the attitude!" The person chuckled.

I closed the door slowly and walked to my car. I got inside and i felt a tear roll down my face.
"Not everything's about you Emily!" I didn't mean it that way and he knows that I didn't mean for any of this to happen. No! I can't be affected I've been through this before and I can't cry! I whipped the tear off my face and started the engine.

I arrived home, I walked inside and to the kitchen. Abby was sitting on the counter as usual. She greeted me with a smile along with a smirk.

"Where have you been?!" She asked still smirking. I walked to the fridge and grabbed a bottle of water from inside.

"It's not the right time abby, im taking a shower and i will stay in my room if you need me" i said furrowing my eyebrows and walking out. I walked upstairs and into my room.

I took the hoodie off and put it on the bed, walking into the bathroom. I undressed myself and walked in the shower taking the hottest shower you could ever take. My mind kept on repeating what Jaden said, it really hurt me. I know i might be a little selfish but it was for the best, but now that they broke up it's even a worse situation. I felt tears run down my face and i just started sobbing.

I'm a really sensitive person but I don't really show it because I've been bullied soo many times about it. I taught myself that if i wanna breakdown I should do it alone.

I got out of the shower eventually and wore a pair of sweats and a crop top. I sat in my room all day watching tvd and doing schoolwork.

I know this chapter is bad and im way too late but im really feeling loaded but im trying my best.

I've wrote another book, it's not actually a book it's a series, where I write about emotions and feelings that you can feel but don't talk about if you want to check it out it's on my page. It's basically a place where you can feel free to express yourself.