ana, im not crazy.

Oh ana

"Ana..." thinking, thinking of Ana, of course. Oh how dear Ana is to me, how her poor broken soul speaks out to me in words of love, I love her, I need her, The bitter taste on my tongue I get each time I think of her, I crave her.

I want to taste every ounce of her

But how could I do so, She doesn't know I exist. I am merely a back ground character to her perfect life story, little does she know I'm the one reading, flipping the pages, learning everything I can about her.

In the time I've been watching her, I've learned she's bisexual. Sadly for me, she has a boyfriend.

There isn't a single chance that I can caress her sweet soft cheeks, leave kisses along her collar bone, hold her dear to me in my heart.

My heavy breathing.

inhale

exhale

inhale

exhale

my breath, the breath I would spare for Ana, My angel.

I'll be god.

She's an angel, and I'm god. what more could I have asked for. She will belong to me, she will bend to my will, she will be all mine.

killing her boyfriend shouldn't be to much of a problem, he's already next to me.

his soft breaths, he's trying to hold onto life. one must not defy a god.

with this knife I'll slowly rip his throat open. make him pay for his sins.

his sins being corrupting my precious angel, taking her first kiss, her first love.

one must not steal from me, one must pay for what they have stolen.

slicing the tip of the knife slowly, watching the blood drip onto his neck and drip onto the floor.

...he's dead

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bodies are easy to get rid of, even if its just simply burning them, or hiding them in the floor boards of a basement. the smell doesn't bother me much.

ever since my mother tried to slit my wrists I haven't been bothered by blood. Of course I killed her after. One must not harm a god.

but sometimes I cant help but wonder what life would be like if somebody had tried to save me

either my father, or Ana.. what if Ana could save me? save me from this dark beast within me, thirsting for blood. wanting everybody who has done me harm dead.

Ana, save me.. Ana hear me..

looking over at Ana's limp body, I cant help but feel an ounce of regret. She smells so beautiful, a hint of lavender with a tinge of buttery scones. her pale face with her tinted rosy cheeks, her long full eyelashes, she's perfect.

you are the angel that I couldn't kill..

"Ana.. I'll be with you still.."

digging the knife, digging the knife deep into my veins. smoothly, smoothly cutting them open. Who needs to live anymore? Ana deserves to live. I couldn't be saved.

if only once I could've had you on my shoulders, while we laugh away at some stupid joke.

only if Ana could've saved me, Ana why didn't you save me?

see Ana?

Baby I'm not crazy.

Oh Ana.. Oh Ana..

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A/N

yall this is so bad im so sorry eye- i wrote this for school :P

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NEW A/N: i wrote this a year ago i just want yall to see how bad my writing was. AND THE FACT I SUMBITTED IT FOR SCHOOL WTF