they never learn, do they?

chapter one :: the morning

      waking up in the mornings is hard. i want to sleep in, but the sun is shining so bright, and the sound of my alarm clock makes my head ring. so i get up. i swing my legs over the mattress after sitting up and hop out of bed. easy just like that. 

     i like making breakfast, especially if it's sweet, nice and sugary. i have a major sweet tooth so i have to eat lots of sweet things to calm it! i usually have pancakes made from scratch, listening to the sound of the batter sizzling on the oiled frying pan wakes me up.

     i also enjoy going for walks in the morning with my dog, vladmir. he's super fast, usually i can't keep up with him because he likes to run. but that's okay, he's just a dog, he doesn't know any better, and he can't understand me as i frantically scream at him to stop running so fast. i can't control that damned dog! but i love him nonetheless.

     after i finish my walks, i can usually be found taking a shower, since my hair is all greasy from the hair products i use in the morning. but that's okay, i like showers. i like the way the water feels on my back, and how warm it gets in there. though, it's almost as if tiny ants are crawling on me. that makes me uncomfortable.

     after i finish my showers i usually do my hair, making it all nice and curly with some moose and hairspray. though, my hair doesn't like to cooperate with me sometimes, that makes me upset. but it's okay, i like how it looks anyway. i also like the way the hairspray smells, it makes my nostrils sting, and the feeling is kind of nice. 

     after i do my hair, i get dressed, i like to put on very plain clothes so i don't stick out too much. i like to live quietly, it makes me uncomfortable when people whistle and catcall me in the streets. but it's okay, sometimes the attention is nice. only sometimes though. 

     lastly, once my clothing is on, my hair is curly, my dog is walked, and i have eaten, i can leave for work. i work at a hospital. it doesn't smell very good in there, and it's loud. the people in there always seem to make a fuss of tiny things. but that's okay, i like helping people. it makes me feel accomplished.