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taehyung pov

I felt my head heavy as I woke up from sleep. The moonlight illuminating my room giving it a vibe of the Starry Night painting. That's when I realized that I had to spend another sleepless night alone. I never complained about not being able to sleep, actually it felt quite tranquillizing seeing the lonely moon drown making and the sun rise. The colour of the sky slowly changing its colour was one of the most beautiful scenery to see. Isn't it amazing that every time you look at the sky the clouds are never fixed, it keeps moving slowly and blissfully. Each passing moments will slowly be a vague memory. It is strange how people does not notice the beautiful side of the moon when its vague light falls upon the water. I could feel the sunlight touching my skin with its warm and gentle touch and illuminating my room with its light.  It was a very normal day for me as I again spent a sleepless night staring at the moon and the countless stars which were the ones who were awake with me in the night which was thick with sadness. They are the only ones whom I can stare at and tell my story and show my real self. I was not alone I had the stars to count and the moon to stare at.
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Today as I was about to get up from my bed I realized that the corridor was filled with muffled cries and shouts. I stepped outside my cabin along with the saline to see the doctors running up and down with all the emergency tools. Again an emergency case. And ah yes, I am hospitalized. Its been quite a long time since I am admitted. It became more of a second home to me. I didn't really complain staying there as I've got the best attendant. By the way he is Seokjin more specifically Kim Seokjin. He loves cooking and treats me like his own child. He never fails in cracking jokes amd making me laugh. He is someone who atleast cares.
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I spotted Seokjin running along with the doctors with his hand full of equipments and identity of a patient named..........Jeo- I couldn't read further as Seokjin was out of my sight. I sighed and went inside my cabin again hoping for any of my friends or parents to show up but my hopes were becoming vague day by day. Actually my happiness was dying slowly and I really couldn't do anything. I always showed my rectangular boxy smile to everyone who either peeks or passes by me because it takes only smile to hide the panging pain in my chest. My hollow heart was waiting for someone to come and fill it with love, laughter and lastly happiness. I am not going to label myself as a depressed  and lonely person but I always felt alone. Once upon a time I was scared of death but now I know sooner or later it will eventually come and then I will be atleast noticed.
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All kinds of stupid thoughts were crowding my mind until I saw a panting Seokjin making his way towards my bed and immediately dropping his tired body beside me. There were beads of sweats decorating his beautiful forehead and his sides of the ear were as red as a tomato. "Hyung what happened? Again an emergency?" I asked, concerned after seeing how weak he looked. "Taehyung-ssi don't give me such a horror look, don't worry its just quite sad to see such a young boy diagnosed with such a heart disease, dilated cardiomyopathy." He answered sadness lingering in his sweet motherly voice. I did not ask anymore questions and told him to take a nap beside while I finish reading the book which I recently bought online, Ikigai. Its a very soothing, self-healing book where it explains a reason for being. But my mind was not focused instead it was crowded with the boy which made me quite sad about the fact that the boy, who is now in the emergency room with oxygen cylinders decorating his surroundings and I can feel how he is going to feel after consciousness hits him.
I mentally noted to ask Seokjin hyung after he his nap about that unknown boy.
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AUTHOR'S NOTE
This is my first every book. Hope this journey be a good one. So let me make this clear I don't have a fixed plot. If there is anything you need to say you are always welcome to inbox me. And if you think that there could have been a improvement please tell me about it. And ah please enjoy. I'll try to update periodically but exams are going on rn. So updates maybe slow but after the exams updates will be regular. THANK YOU.