let go || j.m.b

part 19

well i was hanging out with joey last night and he still hasn't texted me if he's safe or even made it home and i'm starting to worry if something happened to him. have you texted him?

                                      god this is so embarrassing

what do you mean?

                                       he's probably drunk , he always does this when something is going on. it's not new of him but if you can , can you please go by my house and make sure he's alright at least

yeah ofc , i hope you having fun on the road trip. i miss youuu!!

                                           i miss you too!!!

i sigh and grab my car keys

" where are you going " my mom asked

" i'm gonna go check on joey " i said as i opened the front door

" drive safe , don't come home to late and make sure to text me if anything, okay " she said as i nodded and walked into my car and drive to joeys house. after what felt like a good 38 minutes i'm here and his car is outside as well i walk out and knock on the door and nothing.

" joey " i said

" i'm opening the door " i said as i opened the door and mac runs to me as i see a mess. beer cans everywhere, vapes all the floor and couches i quickly walk upstairs into joey's room and see him with his head on his hands as he looked down.

" joey " i said quietly as i walked towards him and sat down in front of him and lay my hand on his

" what's wrong " i said as i hear him sniff as he was just crying

" joey .." i said

" go away kelsey " he said

" what's wrong "  i said

" i don't fucking get it bro , i just don't get it " he said crying

" what are you talking about " i said

" why , why when i want someone i can't have them because i'm such a fucked up person . i always fuck up everything without even knowing . i don't wanna be like this anymore i just want to be loved . loved from the person i want just her, nobody but her " he said as i just looked down not knowing what to say

" i wish i can just have her and give her the whole fucking world , give her what she deserves but i can't no matter how bad i want her i don't deserve her " he said as he cried harder

" why kelsey, why " he said as he looked at me and i could see the pain in his eyes as i pull him and hug him , hug him soo soo tight

" i'm sorry joey , i really am " i said as i hugged him

" but you don't fuck up , nothing is wrong with you . your not a fucked up person. anyone would be lucky to be with you. who ever this girl is. she's really lucky and i think u should give it a try " i said as i tried not to be upset

" get better and go for it , you deserve happiness " i said as i faked smiled

are you dumb?

what are you doing?

you literally telling him to be with someone else

i know , i know but as long as he's happy then ... i'm happy

" kels " he said quietly as he pulled away from the hug

" yes " i said

" um can you spend the night.... " he said

" um " i said not knowing what to say

" you know what that's weird i'm sorry it's fine forget about it " he said as he looked down

" no it's fine i'll stay " i said

" you don't have to it's completely fine if you-" he said as i cut him off

" no it's fine " i said

" you sure " he asked

" yeah it's fine " i said

" oh okay well i'm gonna take a shower and get clean up " he said as i nodded and watch him walk into the bathroom i pull my phone out of my pocket and text my mom

                                    mom💘

hey mom i'm spend the night at joey i'll be back in the afternoon tomorrow i hope you don't mind , i love you see :)

                                        okay honey, text me if anything i love you too

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