Deep down I always wanted it to be you
No matter what you would do
I wanted you
When you think about it there is
NO WAY that is healthy
I cared about this boy so much that no matter what he did I would always go back
On April 10 he broke up with me
My entire world came falling apart
I was destroyed but I acted as if I was fine
I built walls higher than the sky itself
I haven't wanted to build anything with any other boy ever since .
To this day I hate the fact that everytime I write it always seems to be about him
There is just something about him that has got me addicted since the day we met.
But I'm sick of this
I'm sick of caring so much about someone that doesn't care about me
I have decided that I have been left with no other option than to leave him in the past
Yes it will hurt
But continuing to pursue someone that doesn't want me will hurt even more
I need to realize that there is more to life than this boy
I have so much more to experience
And after saying all of that...
I still can't help thinking to myself maybe we could've lasted if we met when we were older but I guess we will never know.
M.M
