My Secret Self

Chapter one: My Past

Eunisse

"Hey! Babe..." Agad akong lumapit sa so called boyfriend ko. His actually weird today. We actually met in a scary place but not the spooky what I meant for that is the both of us could really have some shit PRIVACY!! alam niyo nayun nuh... I think I'm not yet ready for that.
I'm not actually sure if he truly loves me. But well... he courted me enough to show his sincerity but who knows not even the drawer if his just playing a TRASH!relationship with me..
Mabuti na yung sigurado. Naku! ayaw kong ibigay ang so called VIRGINITY ko sa taong iiwan lang ako pag nagsawa na. Damn! I hate guys like that... It reminds me of something.
I came into this world because of a fake love that my dad showed to my mom, actually she didn't knew it all along, she expected that my dad is sincere, responsible, loving and caring but alam niyo na man ang phrase na expectation versus  reality lahat ng ipinapakita niya sa mom ko is a FAKING LIE so my mom has no choice of raissing me alone on her own.
I didn't even bother to FUCKING look for him. KINAMUMUHIAN ko siya.
Kayang kaya ko na mabuhay na walang AMA!
Duhhh what ever!..

He didn't respond but he has a scary look on me.
'Eeeiiiwww'
He took my hand I just obeyed well... hindi naman kasi first time niyang hinawakan ang kamay ko hay! Eh pang hundred times na nga kaming nag gums to gums ah!. Hay naku minsan na susuka ako pag naiisip ko ang mga ginagawa niyang kalandian eh.. ayaw ko naman kasi ng palagi nalang nag ki-kiss kasi nakakasawa kaya. Pero siya walang sawa!my GOD! kahit my mga nakatingin, wala siyang pakialam WOW talaga hay minsan nga iniisip ko na parang di niya ko nirerespeto. Pero right naman kasi yun nila eh pero feeling ko sa pagtagal ng relationship namin parang wala na siya sa lugar. Ewan basta pag sumubra pa siya I will break up with him... Kahit na I started to fall in love with him. I'm afraid his like my father..

He pulled me closer to him diyos ko naman parang may naramdaman akong masama dito... LAGOT!
He immediately kiss me so aggressively para namang dudugo na ang mga lips ko nito.
I can't barely breathe...
This is not our first kiss but I knew that this is different..
I consume all my strength to push him away from me when I felt his hand under my SKIRT!  'Shit'
"What's wrong!?"
Seryoso nagtatanong pa siya ha! Sarap upakan nito ah.. Pero mas malakas siya sa'kin kaya when he pulled me closer wala akong kawala no use kahit mangisay pa'ko.
Bakas sa mga mata ko ang takot... Hindi ko siya nakitang ganito before, his acting different I even questioned, is this really my boyfriend?
"Be a good girl..." He whispered into my ears and lick my neck!
Nag goosebumps ako his actually turning me on.. what the!
I accidentally groan, FREAK!
He laid me down in his car!!! Maintaining the kiss I felt he parted my legs causing my skirt to go up..
I can't even SPEAK to make him STOP! oh no... I'm done here.
I even trying to stop him unbuttoning my blouse shit! He succeeded coz I felt his hand touching my BOOBS!
Aaaarrrgghhh!!!

I HATE him so much!
Hindi pa nakuntento aba! His trying to pull my undergarment, to be specific ang PANTY ko!! Hay naman di nako nagsuot ng shorts kasi ang higpit na kasi ng skirt ko ang iksi pa!

I grab the opportunity to kick him right in his erecting ass ha!
3 points!!!

"Ahhh!!! Fuck you!! Arrrgghhh..."
Namimilipit siya sa sakit.

"Sorry..."
'Buti nga sayo... Hahaaha'

Aba naka recover na siya. Umuusok talaga ang ilong niya sa galit.
Ang manyak kasi! Ngayon ko lang na realize... Ang PANGET niya!

"Ano bang problema mo!?,"
Dahan dahan siyang lumapit sa kin gusto niya yatang baliin ko yan eh!

"Baka ikaw ang may problema ang bastos mo naman! Tama bang manyakan mo ang girlfriend mo?!," nakakainis na siya ah ang panget na! Manyak pa!

"Hahahahaha nagpapatawa kaba? Sinong inuuto mo Eunisse... One year boyfriend mo nako tapos hanggang kiss  lang tayo? Ang boring mo naman! Ni hindi nga ako nag i-enjoy sa mga kissing natin, na kakasawa na kaya dapat lumibel ap na tayo..."

'Ang kapal mo!'

*PAKKKK!!!!*
Isang malakas na sampal para sa isang katulad niya walang hiya! Manyak! Bastos! Walang kwenta! Basura!

"I regreted everything Luke,
We're over..."

Ya right! Tama lang ang gagawin ko nuh hindi niya deserve ang pag-ibig ko!

Parehos lang sila ni Papa mapagsamantala...

I immediately run away from him..
Umaagos na ng tuluyan ang mga luha ko hindi ko maintindihan why I am feeling so painful, my heart actually shattered into pieces...

Hindi ko halos matanggap na ang lalaking akala ko ang aking da one ay walang pinagkaiba sa taong kinasusuklaman ko.
I regreted the moment I let him enter my life.. I even started to love him.
Ang sakit ang sakit sakit... Ni minsan hindi niya pala ako minahal, boring ako?! at nakakasawa ako! FUCK YOU LUKE! your an ass!!!

I'm just walking alone in the sidewalk I don't know where to go I'm feeling lost...
Shit! My tears are not even stopping nakakainis na talaga he don't deserve my tears!
Naiinis din ako sa self ko why I haven't noticed it from the beginning. Ang dali kong mauto!
I hate myself....