I've been walking on a corridor with so many people. I've almost bump some of them. As I pass through I have meet many eyes.
And I wonder "how are they?"
Upon thinking I've bump a girl and our eyes met. I can say that her eyes are like mine.
I called her "Miss, are you okay?" In the blink of an eye, a tear fall from her eyes and then she ran away.
"Oh! She wasn't" I told to myself.
I continued walking and enter a lobby when I received a call.
"Hey, where are you?" he asked.
"I'm in a building" I answered.
"WHERE THE FCK ARE YOU?" he asked angrily but panicking.
"I'm in the tallest building, I'll hang up." I said calmly.
"WAIT! PLEASE! PLEASE! DON'T!" he begged.
"You know that I'm always here for you, right?" he said calmly and reassuring.
"Yeah" I only said and hang up.
I'm now in front of the elevator door, waiting for it to open and take me higher. The elevator door opened then I enter, push the highest floor button. My nose filled with cold air and I can feel my heart going wild as the elevator goes up.
And finally I've reached my destination.
My nose filled with cold fresh air at the rooftop and I can feel my heart going even wilder.
I walked and stand in the edge of the railing where I can see my freedom.
I gasp in the anticipation.
Sometimes, no matter how many times they say "I'm always here for you." It won't help. They're there but are they going to take away what's inside? They won't, right. The only person that can do it is yourself. So here I am, taking my last workable option.
I jump.
I felt like flying with these butterflies in my stomach. I hugged myself as I felt chill from the cold strong wind. And the next thing I knew I was lying in floor.
I felt numb but I can see people gathering around me. I just noticed that it was cloudy and looked like it will rain soon.
As soon as I closed my eyes, I only felt relieved. Because finally it's over. Everything was over now. No more silent cries, no more overthinking, no more sleepless nights and most of all, no more pretending.
This is all I always wanted. In my head, I had died many times but this will be the last day that I will think that I aren't worthy enough.
Farewell.
