Hello there! So I won't be writing for a little while. I've been loosing it recently..or am I? I don't wanna get straight into it yet though. My uncle committed suicide..I've been struggling to cope..it hurts. I tried to see if writing helps. It doesn't really.I will try to write as much as possible after I feel better. But I don't know when that'll be. My eyes hurt..my legs hurt..my back hurts. I don't know how much I can take. I'm sorry if I get to my breaking point in this story. It's been hard lately. Moms been working more and making me watch the kids. I know it doesn't sound bad. But..my brother needs treatments. I watch him everyday..mom promises to spend time with us but ends up sleeping all day. I'm not sure what I'm doing wrong. Am I annoying? I tried waking her up when she told me to..but she just told me to fuck off. She went to sleep at 10 am and at midnight I tried waking her up again. I was tired..she didn't give a shit. She told me I was a liar and that I had slept in..but I remember waking up at 6 am to watch the babies and kids like usual. She obviously told me to fuck off again. Luckily at 3 am I got them to sleep. I tried sleeping.:but I couldn't? Is there something wrong? Am I doing something wrong?? Then after a few months when my uncle passed so did my grandpa..a few weeks after his wedding with my grandma. It was heartbreaking...I don't know how my grandma is coping. I fell into some bad methods of coping. I don't want to say them. I figured it would be a good method..but it's not. It's not at all. I keep seeing these skinny y'all creatures around the house. I'm scared. My friend got diagnosed with cancer. I'm afraid for him. I don't wanna loose him. I try venting to my friends. But I'm afraid they will tell me I'm being over dramatic. Maybe in the next chapter of this I'll reveal some more stuff. I hate sounding over dramatic. Am I though? I don't know. Give me your opinion..please. I wanna know I'm at least not annoying to some people. I'm gonna end the chapter here. Bye.
