I shot up breathing really fast as my heart was racing feeling like it was going to blow up exploding actually and a major headache began to start making me groan in pain I turned to see a worried jahseh staring furrowing his eyebrows,
Tears started to fell down my face "you ight stokeley you need some water or anything you look like you bout to explode"jah said in a worried tone as I started to sniffing,
I opened my mouth to say something but just a squeak came out from my mouth I frowned as he looked confused does he kno hand sign language probably not but worth a shot,
'I'm not okay but I'll be fine I deal with it everyday so don't worry about me'i motioned my hands as he nodded his head "so you have something on your chest what's bothering you but you don't wanna talk about it?"he said reading me like a book,
I frowned even more 'Yes but it's not your problem and I don't feel comfortable talking about it brings bad memories'i motioned my hands as he said everything as I did it,
"But how am I suppose to help you if you don't wanna talk?"he said frowning fuck he finna make it worst I want to tell him but he'll make fun of me or bully me even more...
'Project let's start on that then I can go home I'm already in trouble anyway'i motioned my hands changing the subject he looked hesitant as he nodded his head humming in agreement,
...
"OkaY so what animal you want the project to be about?"jah questioned I opened my mouth to say something but nothing but a squeak "you don't have to pressure yourself to talk pokeley"he said chuckling,
'How about cheetahs'i motioned my hands as jahs eyes lit up in excitement "I fucking love that animal we best friends now"he squealed i tried to laugh but nothing about a squeek,
"Okay just start writing and I'll do the rest"he explains sternly as I nodded I was bout to nut oh my god he so fine when he talks like that fuck,
...
I took a deep breath smiling at my progress I tried to talk again but my jaw began to hurt, but I can take pain I take it everyday actually,
I got a extra paper and wrote down 'I'm done' and handed him the paper as he nodded humming "it's kinda late want me to walk you home?..."he questioned blushing I bit,
I'm already in trouble so why not he's worth the pain so fuck it I nodded my head as he smiled a little,
...
I took a deep breath as tears started to form into my eyes "bye pokeley"jah said kissing my cheek this is new I guess... but and he hates me.....
eh I'll go with it for him I had the biggest crush on him for fucking 3 years and he still didn't notice me but now he's my bully and he fucking kissed my cheek.. process made.
I waved at him as he winked at me walking back to his home now time to face my deal of pain for him everything I do is for him getting raped,abused,slut called and more but it's for his love I went gay for him..
...
"Why are you home late mr Goulbourne?"my mom questioned sternly making me gulp I opened my mouth to say something but nothing came out of my mouth but a squeak making me mentally cuss myself,
...
"That's for fucking coming late in my house you worthless faggot"she spat smirking wickedly I don't know why I did it but I hugged her...
I could here her heartbeat fast as I heard her veins pumping feeling her now hot skin as I felt her blood boiling,
She punched me in the head and slapped me then started beating me senseless the wounds what jah cleaned and bandited up was gone even the stitches holding my gash together,
I started bleeding everywhere my nose my head and small bruises started bleeding to,
"Now go to your fucking room you faggot I see why your sister left"my 'mother' spat angrily I got off the cold tile as I ran up the stairs not looking back I closed my room door and walked over to my mirror,
"UGLY, FAT, DISGUSTING,FAILURE,FAGGOT,DISAPPOINTMENT"the voices repeated in my head over over and over echoing "n-no y-your lying get out of my head"I studdered as more tears came down my cheek I shook my head and looked back at the mirror,
Then I saw him.. :
Oops! This image does not follow our content guidelines. To continue publishing, please remove it or upload a different image.
"I can help you stokeley.."he said as his arms was around my small waist I didn't even had enough energy to fight,
I opened my mouth to say something but finally words came out "w-who are you and what do you want from me" I asked tiredly I'm tired enough I don't need this demon in my life right now
"Well I'm your personal demon so I'm stuck with ya and I'll help ya out in life so get use to me my name is sonny"he simply said kissing my neck,
"S-stop doing that I don't like my body it's weird and-"he cut me off "nigga I kno you en talking shit bout your beautiful body you got more curves more ass than any girl I know"he says putting his hands on my hips,
"Your just saying that to make me feel better"I said frowning he turns me around to face him "nigga you are the most beautiful human on this planet don't let any fucker tell you your not baby"he says hugging me
