{~My Addiction~}

~Prolouge~

♡ Hey,A/N.♡
♡So I'm gonna put a suicide warning and abuse warning. I hope i don't trigger any memories. And the song 'HOUSEWIFE RADIO' also will get a warning because it has some depressing imagery. But that's it!♡

.....BEEP! BEEP! BEEP!....

I groaned,and presses the off button on my alarm. I turned in my bed and looked at the time.
S h i t.
I was gonna be late,again. I swiftly got up and out of bed and changed into some clothes. Clothes i hated wearing.
It was a short sleeved purple dress,with a bow on the front. I put some black high heeled boots on and walked to the kitchen.
'Aw,good morning Dear.' My grandma greeted me was i walked in. She was my only family i had left after my parents died in a car crash. She drinking some tea whilst sitting at the table. 'You look nice and proper today!' She said while giving me a smile.
My grandma always wanted me to be a   'Proper Lady'  but i really couldn't care less.
'Thanks Grandma.' i returned a smile but it wasn't a real one. I sat down with her and ate my toast.
'How are things with Lance?' She asked curiously.
Lance is my Boyfriend..sorry,sad excuse of a boyfriend.
He only pays attention to me when I'm dressed like a girly girl and cheats on me 24/7. Why haven't i left him already? Well my Grandma had paired us together..and despite me hating it,i don't want to hurt her.
'Good,they're good..' I said lying to her.
'Thats nice,but you should be going now! Don't want you to be late.' She said. 'Right.' I got up and walked outside and headed to school.
While walking,i hummed 'HOUSEWIFE RADIO' by GHOST. I've always enjoyed that song for some reason.
When i made it to school i see my best friend,Katie. 'Hey Katie!' I ran to her and hugged her,smiling.
'Woah there- Hey Isabelle. Please get off me. Personal space.' She said.
'Oh right,sorry. Anyways how are you?' I asked her. 'Not bad. How are you?' She smiled softly at me.
'Eh,good. But sad that i have to go to my "boyfriend".' I rolled my eyes when saying boyfriend.
'Psh...Belle,i know you don't wanna hurt your grandma but cmon. He's an asshole!' Katie said while putting her hand on my shoulder. She always hated Lance for treating Women like toys. 'I know,i know..but my heart is too big and ya know that.' I smiled at her and put her hand off me.

RINNGGG RIIIING RIING!

The school bell went off. It was time for class. 'Aw man..welp lets head to class.' Katie said and i followed her to our first class.

After class

I went to the library to read 'Goosebumps'. Yes i know its for kids,but i loved it ever since i was 12.
I put on my headphones and put on some music. As i climbed the ladder,i started to dance on it. Like a pole. I really didn't know what i was doing.
I then heard 'Oh my god.' from behind me. I looked around,it was Katie. She had wide eyes and just starred at me. 'Jesus,i know i'm friends with a crazy person but i didn't know i was friends with a pole dancer!' She chuckled.
I was red from embarrassment.
'Oh s-shuttup!' I got down and let my headphones rest on my neck.
'Anyways..Lance wants to see you in the bathroom..' Katie said kinda bothered.
I sighed 'Oh..welp i better go then.' I walked to the bathroom.
A fight between Lance and i happened. I wont say what happened,but he did hit me..after that i ran home. I don't want people seeing me cry. It'll show i'm weak. I'm not weak.
I ran into the bathroom,my Grandma wondered why i was home but i didn't care. I cried in the bathroom,while in a ball.
I kept crying..until i remembered something.

My Glock.

I remembered a put a Glock in a cabinet. I dug into a cabinet and pulled it out. I checked it and it was loaded,i hesitantly put it to my head. Shaking and crying.
'I'm so sorry Katie..Grandma..i'm just..so weak...so.....weak..' i muttered out.

BANG

I lost my vision.

I lost my hearing.

I lost my voice.

And finally..

I lost my breath.