boundless as the sea // n.h. au

two - niall

It's a strange thing, how you can go from being engaged one moment to being completely unengaged the next. Engaged, and then you're not. Your whole life planned out, and then—nothing. Blissful, empty, beautiful nothing.

Rhiannon had gone from Niall's favorite person on earth to his least favorite overnight. Or maybe it wasn't overnight: he didn't wake up, feel the sun breaking through the blinds, and realize that he needed to break off his engagement. But it only took a second for Rhiannon to react to the suggestion that maybe getting married wasn't the best idea, and Niall knew he'd made the right choice.

"Oh, thank God," she'd said. They were having dinner at their favorite restaurant in Seven Dials, which was to say, Rhiannon's favorite restaurant and a place that Niall had neither particularly negative or positive feelings about. She'd started telling people it was their favorite restaurant, and then it became too late to correct her, and now they'd been going there at least once a month since the early days of their relationship.

Niall didn't intend to initiate the breakup there, at their so-called favorite restaurant, but he was watching Rhiannon peruse the menu just as he had the month before, and he knew she was only moments away from ordering for him, and in his mind he imagined doing this for the rest of his life, and he knew he couldn't. He just couldn't.

And Rhiannon had reacted better than expected. She'd always been a bit of a dramatic person, so he'd been prepared for her to throw down her fork and storm out, or at least raise her voice a bit. But instead she thanked him.

"I've been meaning to say something for ages!" she'd said. "But you know how my mum is. Which is why we can't tell anyone."

"I—what?" Niall had been reasonably confused. The whole point of ending their engagement was so they didn't have to still be engaged. He did not want to pretend.

"Our Italy trip. My mum's already paid for it, and if we tell her we broke up, she'll cancel the whole thing, and you know how much I've been looking forward to it."

Right. Niall knew. She talked about it constantly, was constantly texting him pictures of places she wanted to see and restaurants she wanted to try. He was not looking forward to three weeks of following her around a country where he didn't speak the language, eating too many carbs.

But as he'd looked in her eyes that night, the night that should've been their last together, he figured he could do her this one last favor. He could stick it out for another month, spend three weeks with her in Italy and then be done with it.

So that's how he'd ended up here, sitting on a bench in a square in Verona, staring up at a balcony purported to be the one from Shakespeare's famous Romeo and Juliet, even though Shakespeare never even traveled to Italy. Rhiannon ditched him this morning, boarding a bus for a wine tour in the countryside that he had absolutely no interest in. Instead, he caught a walking tour and ended up here.

This bench is apparently his new home, as he's been here for three hours and, try as he might, he just can't get himself to move. He's fascinated by what he is seeing: girl after girl, and even the occasional guy, shoving letters into the loose bricks under the balcony, tears running down their faces. The tour guide had said that people came here from all over the world to leave letters to Juliet, begging her to fix their love woes.

A while ago, someone had left a notepad on Niall's bench after finishing their own letter, and someone else had discarded a pen on the ground. Niall had spent half an hour staring at it, feeling as if it was beckoning him. No one needs love advice more than him right now. He's probably the only one in this country on vacation with their ex-fiancée and zero desire to win her back.

Now, finally, he stills the pen after spending twenty minutes spinning it between his fingers, and he begins to write.

Dear Juliet,

No offense, but I think your story is a load of bull. Love isn't real, and it certainly wasn't real for you and Romeo. You were only 14 years old, and neither of you made it out alive. That certainly isn't the kind of love I want.

So what do I want? I'm not sure, but I know it isn't Rhiannon. I thought I loved her once, but I know better now. I know that I just wanted to be in love. I just wanted someone to spend evenings on the couch with, to go to the cinema with, to introduce to my mates. Rhiannon was all of those things, but she was also annoying and difficult and after a while, not very much fun to be around. She made me forget what I once liked about myself.

Is that what love is, then? Someone who makes the things you like about yourself shine like neon? Someone who brings out the best in you, like they say in all the films?

Does such a thing exist? I guess I'll just have to keep looking.

– Niall Horan

London, England

When he finishes, he folds it up before he can think better of it and approaches the wall, looking for a good spot to stick it. It's nearing sunset, and the wall is bursting with letters shoved here and there, crammed into every visible crack. If he can't find room for his, how will anyone who came tomorrow find a place for theirs?

He turns, looking at the other visitors to the wall. A few feet away, a teenager presses a kiss to her envelope before jamming it underneath a loose brick. Further down, a woman takes a letter from the wall and drops it in a basket. Wait—she's taking a letter from the wall? Niall inches closer.

Yep, that's definitely what she's doing. She stretches onto her tiptoes to grab a letter just above her head, and when she can't quite reach it, Niall steps forward to pluck it from the brick for her.

"Grazie," she says, smiling at him and holding out her hand for the letter. "Thank you."

"You're welcome," Niall says. He holds the letter hostage for a second, though. "Are you stealing the letters?"

The woman laughs. "Stealing? No, of course not. We write back."

"You write back?" Niall turns his own letter over in his hand and considers throwing it away. He didn't realize someone would read it.

"Yes." The woman slips her basket over her arm and holds out her hand. "I'm Sonia."

"Niall." She reminds him a bit of his mum, with soft smile lines around her mouth and light eyes. That must be why he returns her handshake.

"Nice to meet you, Niall," Sonia says. "Would you like to help?"

Would I like to help? Niall repeats the question in his mind. On the one hand, he's absolutely shit when it comes to love—the letter he's hiding behind his back right now is proof enough of that—but on the other hand, he doesn't have anything else to do.

"Sure," he says. "I'd love to help."

Three - Bea