i-im a monster man

Chapter 2

2019 ~ present day

After that memory he had yesterday, he remembered his diary, what his mum and dad had said about him cutting himself, his mum called him even more of a monster and his dad threatened to hit him, that didnt help, that made it worse by now,

Obviously Pat couldnt harm himself anymore, he misses the feeling, sometimes he twists his arrow up and down to simulate the pain, or some times he would 'accidently' walk through mike

"Pat? Pat ive finished my speech" Kitty said joyfully

"Patrick!" The captain shouted really loudly, that hurt Pats ears, but it snapped him back to reality

"Ah! Sorry Kitty, that was a good speech, everyone lets clap" he said putting on a fake smile, he had been putting a fake smile on ever since, well he was 8, that dreadful day, always saying hes fine, he snapped back when a loud up roar of claps came, he clapped aswell

"Next we have Julian who offered to give us his Election Speech, from 1989, go ahead Julian" Pat said, making room for him, as pat went back to his seat

He felt eyes burning him, he thought he was being paranoid, if ghosts could sweat, he'd be drenched right now, he was afraid, he had snapped to and from real life, nobodys asked him yet so he seemed convinced

"Patrick? Are you alright?" Thomas asked the scout leader

He smiled

"Im fine" he said "thank you Thomas"

"I was just checking, because you have been ignoring ua for the past three minutes" Thomas said pointing around the room, everyone was looking at him

"Yeah, sorry about that, ive been in my own little world recently, is everything okay?"

This had been a close one, he needed to stop getting distracted from his thoughts

"PAT!" Julian said clapping his hands infront of Pats Face

He snapped back

"Dude are you okay?" Julian asked

"Yeah, i need some fresh air, continue without me, Mary is after you Julian, make sure everyone claps" Pat says rushing out the door

He was shaking, hyperventilating, his head kept repeating the same word

Monster

He wanted it to stop, but it couldnt

Monster

"Just get out of my head!"

Monster

Pat had given in, he ran to the lake, he knew there was a bench, he sat down and started to twist his arrow, he would wince everytime he touched a nerve, he didnt mind, he liked the pain, he liked everything about it

He hears footsteps... He stopped and looked behind the corner, yep, there was Alison, he placed his hands on his Lap

"Hey Pat, the others told me to check on you, told me they were worried, you've been acting strange"

This right here, this was the moment he had to put all his effort in, to put up a fake smile and talk without bursting, he hoped it would work

He smiled

"Oh, its nothing Alison, its just, i miss my wife, and my son, im worried they might....forget about me"

"Im sure they wont Pat, even if they do, you'll always have me, now is that all you had to talk about, Kitty said she caught you... In your room.... Twisting your arrow around..."

Pat froze, he still smiled,

Think Patrick think, your always an idiot, think now this is important

"Oh nothing! I was trying to sleep and it kept getting in my way so i was trying to shift it a bit"

Pat had always lied, well not always, usually whenever he got asked about his feelings, hopefully Alison believed him

"Alright then Pat, i trust you too tell me whenever your feeling down!"

"Me? Oh no i never usually feel down, im mr Happy brings positive vibes every he goes!"
He laughed, Alison laughed

"Alright then Pat, do you want me to tell the others your feeling better?"

He nodded, she left, he looked until she went inside and went back to his original plan

God your such a monster, lying to Alison and your Family, why are you so useless

Monster monster monster monster monster monster monster monster monster monster monster monster monster monster

"Help me" Pat whispered, with tears in his eyes