The Dare

♡: last part (1/5)

𝙂𝙪𝙣'𝙨 𝙋𝙊𝙑

Pagkatapos kong iiyak lahat-lahat ay dumiretso na ako sa lugar kung saan kami magkikita ni Oab. Pagkarating ko dun ay wala pa akong Oab na naabutan. 𝘗𝘧𝘵, 𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘥. 𝘎𝘢𝘯𝘶𝘯 𝘱𝘢 𝘥𝘪𝘯 𝘴𝘪𝘺𝘢, 𝘭𝘢𝘵𝘦 𝘱𝘢𝘭𝘢𝘨𝘪.

After ten minutes of waiting, nasilayan ko siyang papalapit sa'kin. He cheerfuly smiled at me but I just slightly waved my hand as a response.

"𝗛𝗲𝘆 𝗯𝗼𝗼, 𝗜 𝗺𝗶𝘀𝘀𝗲𝗱 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘀𝗼 𝗺𝘂𝗰𝗵. 𝗛𝗼𝘄 𝗜 𝘄𝗶𝘀𝗵 𝗜 𝗰𝗮𝗻 𝘁𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁𝗹𝘆 𝗵𝘂𝗴 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗿𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁 𝗻𝗼𝘄. 𝗛𝗼𝘄 𝗜 𝘄𝗶𝘀𝗵 𝘆𝗼𝘂'𝗹𝗹 𝗹𝗲𝘁 𝗺𝗲 𝗱𝗼 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀 𝗷𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝗹𝗶𝗸𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗼𝗹𝗱 𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗲𝘀. 𝗕𝘆 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘄𝗮𝘆 𝗯𝗼𝗼 𝗵𝗼𝘄 𝗮𝗿𝗲-"

"𝗔𝗻𝗼 '𝘆𝘂𝗻𝗴 𝘀𝗮𝘀𝗮𝗯𝗶𝗵𝗶𝗻 𝗺𝗼?" pagputol ko sa mga sinasabi niya.

I don't want to hear any sweet words from him anymore specially that endearment 'boo'. Bacause everytime I'm seeing him, bumabalik lahat ng sakit tsaka galit.

The memory of him kissing that bitch, them moaning each other's names, fucking their asses off inside that filthy room, those scenarios were haunting me everynight. It makes me burst in anger.

The way he asked for another chance the day after I saw them, the way he begged for me to stay, the way he reasoned out that he was just tempted, it triggered my whole system more and more.

"𝗕𝗼𝗼, 𝗮 𝘆𝗲𝗮𝗿 𝗵𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝗽𝗮𝘀𝘀𝗲𝗱. 𝗛𝗶𝗻𝗱𝗶 𝗺𝗼 𝗽𝗮 𝗿𝗶𝗻 𝗯𝗮 𝗮𝗸𝗼 𝗻𝗮𝗽𝗮𝗽𝗮𝘁𝗮𝘄𝗮𝗱?" he asked.

" '𝗬𝗮𝗻 𝗹𝗮𝗻𝗴 𝗯𝗮 𝘀𝗮𝘀𝗮𝗯𝗶𝗵𝗶𝗻 𝗺𝗼 𝘀𝗮𝗸𝗶𝗻 𝗸𝗮𝘆𝗮 𝗻𝗮𝗸𝗶𝗽𝗮𝗴𝗸𝗶𝘁𝗮 𝗸𝗮?"

"𝗡𝗼. 𝗜 𝗷𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝘁𝗼 𝘀𝗲𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂. 𝗜 𝗷𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝘁𝗼 𝗸𝗻𝗼𝘄 𝗵𝗼𝘄 𝘆𝗼𝘂'𝘃𝗲 𝗯𝗲𝗲𝗻. 𝗜 𝗷𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝘁𝗼 𝗸𝗻𝗼𝘄 𝗶𝗳 𝘆𝗼𝘂'𝗿𝗲 𝗱𝗼𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗳𝗶𝗻𝗲 𝗯𝘂𝘁 𝗜 𝗴𝘂𝗲𝘀𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂'𝗿𝗲 𝗻𝗼𝘁," Oab.

Hindi ako kumibo. Nanatili akong nakatingin sa harap, hindi ko siya nilingon.

"𝗬𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗲𝘆𝗲𝘀 𝘄𝗲𝗿𝗲 𝘀𝘄𝗼𝗹𝗹𝗲𝗻, 𝗯𝗼𝗼. 𝗞𝗮𝗴𝗮𝗴𝗮𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗺𝗼 𝗹𝗮𝗻𝗴 𝗯𝗮 𝘀𝗮 𝗶𝘆𝗮𝗸? 𝗪𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗵𝗮𝗽𝗽𝗲𝗻𝗲𝗱?"

The time na tinanong niya 'yun, nanumbalik sakin lahat nang nabasa ko. Feeling ko tuloy maiiyak na naman ako ulit. Naiisip ko na naman kung paano ako nahulog sa maruming laro ni papii. Kung gaano kadali niya akong naloko.

Nilingon ko si Oab. Tinitigan ko siya sa mata. Hoping my feelings for him before will come back again. Hoping i can love him again. I'll rather choose to give Oab another chance than to be stupidly into someone who doesn't really feel the same way as mine.

"𝗢𝗮𝗯, 𝗵𝗮𝗹𝗶𝗸𝗮𝗻 𝗺𝗼 𝗸𝗼."

"𝗪-𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁?"

"𝗞𝗶𝘀𝘀 𝗺𝗲 𝗢𝗮𝗯."

"𝗦𝗲𝗿𝘆𝗼𝘀𝗼 𝗸𝗮 𝗯𝗮-"

I pulled his neck for a kiss. I closed my eyes. Hinalikan ko siya sa labi. But I don't know why the fuck my mind is seeing papii's face while I'm kissing this guy right here.

Mas diniinan ko pa 'yung halik. But the more I'm kissing him, the more my mind keeps hallucinating that it's papii whom I'm kissing with.

My tears started to fall down. 𝘉𝘢'𝘵 𝘴𝘢 𝘭𝘢𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘯𝘢𝘭𝘢𝘯𝘨 𝘯𝘢𝘯𝘨 𝘣𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘺 𝘴𝘪𝘺𝘢 𝘯𝘢𝘪𝘪𝘴𝘪𝘱 𝘬𝘰? 𝘉𝘢𝘬𝘪𝘵 𝘬𝘢𝘩𝘪𝘵 𝘢𝘯𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘨𝘢𝘸𝘪𝘯 𝘬𝘰, 𝘴𝘪𝘺𝘢 𝘢𝘵 𝘴𝘪𝘺𝘢 𝘱𝘢 𝘳𝘪𝘯 𝘯𝘢𝘬𝘪𝘬𝘪𝘵𝘢 𝘬𝘰? 𝘉𝘢'𝘵 𝘴𝘰𝘣𝘳𝘢 𝘬𝘰 𝘴𝘪𝘺𝘢𝘯𝘨 𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘢𝘩𝘢𝘭 𝘯𝘨 𝘨𝘢𝘯𝘪𝘵𝘰?

Si Oab na ang kusang huminto nang halikan namin. I can see the pain and sadness in his eyes. He softly caressed my cheeks, wiping those tears.

"𝗬𝗼𝘂 𝗸𝗻𝗼𝘄 𝗵𝗼𝘄 𝗵𝗮𝗿𝗱 𝗜 𝗹𝗼𝗻𝗴𝗲𝗱 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗸𝗶𝘀𝘀𝗲𝘀 𝗯𝗼𝗼, 𝗯𝘂𝘁 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗶𝘀 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗜 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝗶𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝗯𝗲. 𝗜 𝗰𝗮𝗻 𝗳𝗲𝗲𝗹 𝘆𝗼𝘂'𝗿𝗲 𝘀𝗲𝗲𝗸𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝘀𝗼𝗺𝗲𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴, 𝘀𝗼𝗺𝗲𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝗯𝗲 𝗲𝘅𝗮𝗰𝘁... "

"...𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗜'𝗺 𝗮𝘄𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗜'𝗺 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘀𝗼𝗺𝗲𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗻𝗲𝗲𝗱𝗲𝗱 𝗿𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁 𝗻𝗼𝘄. 𝗜 𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘀𝗼 𝗺𝘂𝗰𝗵 𝗚𝘂𝗻 𝗯𝘂𝘁 𝗜 𝗴𝘂𝗲𝘀𝘀 𝗶𝘁'𝘀 𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗲 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝗺𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝗹𝗲𝘁 𝗴𝗼," he said those lines with the tone of hurting in his voice.

"𝗜 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝗯𝗲 𝗮𝗹𝗼𝗻𝗲, 𝗢𝗮𝗯. 𝗣𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝗲 𝗴𝗼 𝗵𝗼𝗺𝗲," I pleaded. Tumango lang siya't tumayo. Pinagmasdan ko kung paano siya unti-unting lumalakad palayo sakin.

I stayed in that place for awhile. Dinamdam ko ang simoy at lamig ng hangin habang pinapakalma ko ang aking sarili. I admired how the nightsky seemed so peaceful, how I wish my life can be as peaceful as those stars above.

Maya maya pa'y dumating si papii. Tinanong ko siya kung ba't siya nandito at sabi niya'y ieexplain daw niya lahat. Biglang binalot ng takot at kaba ang puso ko. 𝘞𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘧 𝘩𝘦'𝘭𝘭 𝘴𝘢𝘺 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘸𝘦 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘦𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴? 𝘞𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘧 𝘩𝘦'𝘭𝘭 𝘥𝘶𝘮𝘱 𝘮𝘦 𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘨𝘰 𝘣𝘢𝘤𝘬 𝘵𝘰 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘨𝘪𝘳𝘭𝘧𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘥? 𝘗𝘢𝘢𝘯𝘰 𝘢𝘬𝘰? 𝘋𝘪 𝘬𝘰 𝘬𝘢𝘬𝘢𝘺𝘢𝘯𝘪𝘯...

Ako na 'yung nagmatigas. Inunahan ko na siya sa kung ano mang gusto niyang sabihin.

"𝗜 𝗱𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘁𝗼 𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗵𝗲𝗹𝗹 𝗼𝘂𝘁 𝗼𝗳 𝗺𝘆 𝗹𝗶𝗳𝗲," I said.

Hindi siya kumibo. Nakakabinging katahimikan lang ang bumabalot sa buong paligid. We stayed like that for some minutes. Sinabi niya nalang sa'kin na lumalalim na ang gabi't ihahatid niya nalang ako sa condo ko. Hindi na ako pumalag.