~The Time That She Lost~

~~Chapter twentieth~~

"Well nothing much, I was thinking about well you know Sam" Emily said awkwardly.

"Yeah? what's the issue? you were happy about him yesterday. Did he do something wrong?" Ali asked.

"No he was wonderful, it's just that you know he already is in love with Claire and they didn't broke up or had a fight or say sepreated but she died and he was left standing alone and we have seen how losing her has affected her. I don't wont his love to fade away because he needs to focus on a new realtionship. I mean" Emily said.

"I understand kid you don't want to be the reason he forgets her. Or say his love decreases for her" Ali said.

"Nor do I want to be someone's second option" Emily said.

"but why are you making a big deal out of it? You have just gone out with him once and you don't know the guy completely" Ali asked.

"Well I know what you mean but it is a big deal to me" Emily asked.

"Why? Don't you think you should give a little time to think like that. You don't know if you are gonna end up together. You both may find someone else" Ali said hoping this would comfort Emily.

"I know this may sound a little cheesy or filmy but I want to have beautiful story. I mean I love you guys and I love Amber and Tyler. I am always thankful that I have you guys but sometimes I feel like I am alone. You know Amber have her boyfriend, Tyler is already married to his science and Janson well he is Janson and you are alway worried about me. I think I will have someone who is by my side and his second priority is me, you will love your life instead of always worrying about me" Emily told her.

"Wait what do you mean by second priority?" Ali asked.

"Out of all the things you are concerned about that?" Emily questioned.

"See I understand what you are trying to say, I understood everything to trying to say. I get what you want but still you shouldn't be making a big deal out if it" Ali said.

"Please don't feel bad I love you a lot but I am 25 and I haven't done anything in my life. Yaa I have a job but it's not want I wanted and after all I have suffered due to the accident and what happened to me after the accident, I just" Emily couldn't complete due to breaking down.

"Hey it's okay kid, things happen" Ali said giving her a hug.

"I just want to have a normal life, where everybody around me isn't always scared or worried for me all the time, where I can have a love life like a normal 25 year old, go out without thinking what if something happens or I have another attack, where everytime my bestfriend comes to talk to my mother in private asking if I am okay or if there was another attack, don't take it the wrong way mum you being over protective and not letting me go out is justified and whatever you are doing is absolutely okay and I have no complains but if that accident wouldn't have happen you could live a normal life and everybody around me could. Having a guy in life is not the solution to all this but it's a step to a normal life and Sam is good to me, you guys know him already and he doesn't look at me like I was broken before and I could brake down again, he looks at me like every normal guy looks at a girl. You should be relaxing and live your life and Janson shouldn't be leaving his friends to pick me up or keep an eye on me, Amber or Tyler shouldn't be careful around me. I mean I don't even know who I was mom, I just want a life where I don't have to think about something happening to me, it's time you rest and I take care of you and we all have a normal life, it's been three year after all and by the way second priority because I want him put himself at first because I don't want Ali Greene all over again, who doesn't think about herself and take care of me all the time even if she is tried and anyone could see on her face. I him to be his first priority. Who take care of himself and also career vise" Emily said almost breaking down.