A Past Can Destroy You || Original Story || Coming Soon

~Chapter One~

~Disclaimer~ The world and ideas for this is from Averageghost

Present Time

I never thought I would get chosen for the selection. It is true I am just a 23 year old Moroi living in Mortale. I left home five years ago to make a name for myself, and apparently that is what I have done, because look where I am, headed to the castle to compete for the Emperer's heart. Well, I don't want his heart, just his lust, and if I am able to make it into his bed, or draw him to mine, then I will have achieved what I want. I never believed that with all that I endured as a young child, that it would one day lead me here, but I will feed, and I will become even more popular and powerful than I already am. 

It is true, I have no hope for love, but sex, that is what I live for, especially after that horrid accident. Feeding off lust isn't that difficult, and it makes me powerful, mostly because lust is everywhere, and when people lust after me, oh, that is what makes my heart soar. Being a good looking moroi, with green beady eyes that glow, well, of course men and woman alike would fall over their feet for me. I cross my legs, my dress shifting up, and the palace guard riding with me, warily stared for a second, before he shifted his eyes. Feeding off him every moment he looked at her, and she saw the constricting in his pants. My face showed a smirk as I looked out the window at the scenery that we pass with every moment. Once we have arrived to the palace, they direct me to a room, where all the other selected would be located. I instead decide not to go,and hide out in another room, imagining all the things I could do to the Prince to make him want me.

Maybe if I get pregnant during this selection, I could become more powerful and prove my parents wrong, prove to them I was worthy enough to love. But they would ever love me, not with what they did, not with how they treated me, and how they made me feel. When you are an only child, and something traumatic happens, and no one believes you, it draws for an emotional childhood. They didn't believe me, no, they didn't want to believe me, because that would make their closest friend a child rapist. I had to suffer through even more torment at that point, than ever before, and I never forgave them for that, and never will. I instead pushed it all down, deciding to hook up with people to shove my emotions, and pain down. Racking my body count up high, and showing my power everywhere. I did feed off the second most powerful things when it came to Moroi. Which they always said you developed your abilities due to your past, and I had it bad. 

As I sit alone in this room, I do become bored, wanting to know what is happening in the room with the other selected, I stalked out of the room and started down the hallway, hearing the voice of two young boys, and my eyes peaked, and my breath caught in my throat. They were so young and innocent, she watched as they exited the room, and she hid herself. They reminded her of herself, before her "uncle" hurt her beyond repair. And I suddenly felt a need to show love, but I stayed hidden, I couldn't give myself away so soon. First, I had to hook up with the emperor, first, I had to make it as far as possible, without winning, because I could never subdue someone to a loveless marriage. And I didn't believe I could show anyone love. I went back to my isolated spot, and closed my eyes, dreaming up all the possibilities of how the emperor could be in bed, and I soon fell asleep with the thought of him.