Marham Dard Par

Chapter Twenty Two

It had been difficult for him, knowing that telling Kunal the truth might change everything between them, but it was a risk he had to take. For his Nanko. Since the day he'd found out, he'd been so scared of Kunal finding out the truth, but that was because he found himself alone, pushed into a corner, unable to think. Now, he had Mishti. She was there, every step of the way, helping him and supporting him. With her by his side, Abir felt like he could do everything. He most definitely could look after his brother and be there for him the way Kunal needed.

"Kunal ke baare mein? Kya?" Parul asked. "Woh theek toh haina? Uska aur Kuhu ka phir se koi jhagda toh nahi hua na?"

"Kunal theek hai, Masi," he replied, allowing himself a small smile. Masi really did love Kunal so much.

"Toh phir?" She wondered, confused.

Abir knew he had to be tactical in his approach. If he came outright and said it, Masi would shut him down straight away.

"Masi, aap baithiye," he instructed, making her sit on the bed and then sitting beside her.

"Pichle kuch dinon se main soch raha hoon," he started. "Inn do - teen mahino mein Nanko bohot bada ho gaya hai, nahi? Usme kitna theraav aa gaya hai. Ab woh pehle ki tarah bina soche samjhe koi faisla nahi leta. Kuhu ko bhi woh sachche dil se accept karne ki koshish kar raha hai."

Parul smiled widely at that. "Haan, Abir. Kunal sach mein bohot badal gaya hai. Aur achche ke liye. Inn kuch mahino ne hum sabko badal diya. Lekin Kunal mein jo badlaav aaya hai, woh dekhke mujhe bohot khushi hoti hai."

"Main jaanta hoon. Usse dekhke mujhe bhi bohot achcha lagta hai, Masi," Abir replied.

"Usse khush karne ke liye tumhe bohot kuch qurbaan karna pada na, Abir? Mujhe maaf kardo," she said, folding her hands in front of Abir. Belatedly, Parul was coming to realize that she hadn't ever apologized to Abir properly for everything.

"Masi, yeh aap kya kar rahi hain?" He immediately took her hands in his own, pulling them apart. "Aapko aise haath jodne ki zaroorat nahi hai. Please."

"Nahi, Abir. Main tumhaari gunehgaar hoon. Kunal ke moh mein aake maine tumhaara saath chod diya," she insisted.

"Aap ab mera saath dengi, Masi?" He asked her. "Pichle kuch mahino mein jo hua, woh sab bhool ke, nayi shuruat karne mein?"

"Kaisi shuruat?" She questioned.

"Masi, humein Nanko ko sach bata dena chahiye," Abir stated.

Parul immediately stood up from her place on the bed. "Nahi, Abir! Yeh tum kya keh rahe ho?"

"Main sahi keh raha hoon, Masi. Kunal ko sach bata dena chahiye. Usse haq hai jaan'ne ka," he insisted.

"Jo sach maine 25 saalon se chupakar rakha hai, jiske liye maine apni saari zindagi daav pe laga di... tum chaahte ho main Kunal ko woh sach bata doon? Jis sach se itne saalon tak usse door rakha?" Parul asked. "Tum aisa soch bhi kaise sakte ho, Abir!"

"Masi... main samajhta hoon ki yeh aapke liye aasaan nahi hai. Lekin kya aapko nahi lagta ki Kunal ko pata hona chahiye ki aap uski maa hain?" Abir asked.

"Woh Ben Baa ka beta banke khush hai, Abir. Aur main uski khushi se zyada aur kuch nahi chaahti," she replied. "Main Kunal ko kuch nahi bataungi."

"Masi, aap samajhti kyu nahi hai? Ab yeh baat sirf aapke aur Maa ke beech nahi rahi. Main bhi jaanta hoon. Aur main Kunal se nahi chupa sakta! Usse aur jhooth nahi bol sakta main," he explained. "Jab Baba ka sach saamne aaya tha, main toot gaya tha, Masi. Lekin Baba ne jo dhoka diya, usse kahi zyada takleef mujhe iss baat ki hui ki aap sab sach jaante the, lekin kisi ne mujhse sach batana ki zaroorat nahi samjhi. Bachpan se mere mann mein Baba ke liye bohot izzat thi. Hamesha se maine unki tarah ban'ne ki koshish ki. Aap sab jaante the, lekin aap mein se kisine kabhi mujhe sach nahi bataya. Aur aaj bhi, mujhe yeh baat, Baba ke jhooth se zyada dard deti hai, Masi. Main nahi chaahta ki aaj jahaan main khada hoon, kal Kunal ho."

"Main maanti hoon ki shayad humein uss insaan ki sachayi tumhe pehle bata deni chahiye thi. Lekin iska yeh matlab nahi hai ki humein Kunal ko kuch bhi batane ki zaroorat hai, Abir," she said.

"Masi, please..." Abir begged.

"Nahi, Abir! Dekho, main jaanti hoon ki jo 3 mahine pehle hua woh nahi hona chahiye tha. Ben Baa ko kabhi tumhe yeh dhamki nahi deni chahiye thi ki agar tumne Mishti ko nahi choda, toh woh Kunal ko bata dengi ki woh unka nahi mera beta hai. Tumhaare saath bohot galat hua hai. Main jaanti hoon. Lekin, tum jo karna chaahte ho, woh Kunal ke liye galat hai. Woh kabhi bardaasht nahi kar paayega ki Ben Baa uski maa nahi hai. Aur jab usse yeh pata chalega ki main uski maa hoon? Nahi, Abir! Yeh baat usse kabhi nahi pata chal sakti. Bas!" Parul replied resolutely.

Before Abir could say anything, she added, "Abir, iss baare mein mujhe tumse koi baat nahi karni. Main tumhaare aage haath jodti hoon. Kunal se kuch mat kehna."

Abir sighed. He hated that he understood where Masi was coming from. She'd buried the secret deep within herself. For years, no one had uttered a single word about it. She'd sacrificed everything to keep that secret, even made peace with the fact that her son thought of her as disposable and didn't love her or respect her as he should. Telling the son who, till recently, worshipped another woman who he thought was his mother, that that woman who was his everything wasn't his mother, but she was - her, who he had never really cared for - was daunting and seemed impossible. He couldn't guarantee that in her place, he wouldn't do the same thing she was.

He knew that this would make things difficult, but he would have to respect Masi's decision. It would hurt him to keep such a big secret from Kunal. He was barely hanging on to the seams as it is, and was afraid he wouldn't be able to hold on much longer, but for her, he would have to. He didn't have any other option, did he?

Defeated, he turned around for one last look. Masi was sitting at the small mandir in her room and praying. Yeah, he didn't think she'd agree. Dejected, he walked out of the room, only to be greeted with a sight that would haunt him forever.

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