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snow flakes

You lean ur head agsint the cold window as u stare at ur new surroundings theres snow everywhere and all the houses look the same all cookie cutters just diffrent colors movement catches ur eye from inside of the car u turn your head and see ur aunt signing to ur brother u look over and see him nodding his black curly hair bouncing around his ears his blue eyes shift over at you and  he smiles.
my brother nathen is deaf hes older then me by 1yrs but were closer then my other brother witch happens to be his twin i cast my eyes towards Charlie in the back of the car you would think me and him are closer since our appearances are similar i see him glaring outside the window  like me he has his hair dyed his blue and mine is green we bith have piercings i have spider bite piercings on the left side of my face while he has viper bites and septum a percing i have gages and a industrial done along with 3 smaller percings along the sides on both ears he catches me staring at him and flips me off i roll my eyes and look back out the window. I sigh and watch as the window fogs up. We moved to south park colorado with my aunt and her husband to get away from our abusive parents moms in jail  and our dad well shit god only know where he ran off to my arm throbs at the thought of him and i find myself reaching over and runing my hand along the purple cast i try and bury the memories from that night but the way my body aches its hard to forget.

iam snapped out of my thoughts when i feel a warm hand grab mine i look over and see nate smiling at me the street light illuminates the car and i can see the bruises on his face  he signs (u ok?) I nod my head and tighten my hold on his hand as we pull into a drive away and the car comes to a halt my aunt turns around and talks as she signs "ok guys were home grab ur things and we will show u to ur rooms i think we all need a good nights rest" i nod my head and open the door its late in the night so most of the neighborhood is dark i notice a few lights on in houses but other then that its quite and dark  i find myself shivering as the cold seeps into me my breath comes out in clouds around me nate walks over to my side and nudges me (its fucking cold) i laugh as i pull my hands out of my pockets to sign to him we always talk when we sign to him "fuck yea it is! I cant believe theres this much snow already!" We both walk to the trunk of the car to grab our bags. charlie is already there and pushing our stuff out of the way to get to his stuff "hey dont throw my stuff around asshole!" I say to charlie he ignores me tho and grabs my bag and tosses it to the ground i roll my eyes and pick it up "asshole" i mutter as i stand up straight he pushes past me i growl and then bend down and grab some snow ball it up and chuck it at his head it explodes his head whips around "fuck off! Violet" i flip him off as he glares at me with his attention on me he dosent see the next snowball coming at him it hits him in the chest i turn and see nate laughing i start to laugh to but stop when i feel something cold hit me in the face i squeal and brush snow off my face i have just enough time to dodge the next ball that charlie throws and duck behind the car i grab snow and reload nate joins me i turn to him "ill go this way u go around ok" he nods and i run from behind the car and throw snow at charlie i get him one good time in the chest as i run his attention is on me and dosent see nate coming up beside him in one swift movement he  tackles charlie to the ground and into the deep snow i laugh as i run over and kick snow on to both of them they both yelp and laugh as i run away both of them stand up and chase after me and tackle me to the ground the three of us go down and we all laugh its the first real laugh the three of us have shared in awhile we lay in the snow looking skyward at the stars i sit up first and then nate and charlie follow i turn to them and smile nate stands up and offers both of us his hands we take them and stand facing each other nate raises his hands and starts signing ( we need to make the best of this its a time for all of us to do better and to get some well deserved sleep we need to be strong for ourself and each other) i nod my head "your right" charlie rolls his eyes but nods his head "ill try the best i can do" he says and shrugs his shoulders when nate rolls his eyes at him "hey u guys hurry up out there" yells my aunt from the door. We quickly grab our few bags and run inside as i turn to close the door i see somone looking at us from there window there to far to see details but before i close the door they wave  at me i hold my hand up in acknowledgment and then shut the door.

Across the street:
Stan marsh is finshing up his homework when he hears laughing from outside he gets up and see three kids runing around outside throwing snowballs at each other one gets tackled into the snow and another runs over kicking snow onto them they quickly turn and run away but the other two drag them to the ground and into the snow. Hmm i wounder why the jacksons have 3 kids maybe there visting? I think i contuine to watch and see one of them waving there hands around the other two seem to understand and the shorter one raises her hands and makes a gesture suddenly mrs.jackson at the door i hear her tell them to grab there stuff and come inside in the light of the open door i see the short one is a girl she turns to close the door when she pauses and is looking in my direction i wave and see her raise her hand up and close the door hmmm i hum to myself i look over at the clock and see its 12am i sigh and turn my light off and head to bed.

My aunt opens up the door to my room and iam a little tooken back at all the space of course i was sleeping in a walk in closet back at home i had just enough room for a twin mattress and some clothes but this wow "iam glad u like it honey its all yours" my aunt rubs my shoulder "well honey make urself at home bathrooms down the hall and tomrrow we will go shopping for a few things ok" i nod and step into my room i drop my backpack and my dufflebag on the ground next to the few boxes that my uncle brought the week before there full of clothes and shoes mostly i didnt have many personal belongings so it was easy to pack up i walk over to the window and see it overlooks the backyard a tree sits close to my window but other then random lawn furniture and wood shed its pretty bare i pull the blinds down and sit on my bed and fall backwards on the soft mattress after a few min i spring back up and head for the door and jump back when i see charlie standing there hand raised to knock he smirks at me "smoke break"  he holds up his pack of cigs and shakes them around i hold up my pack and smile "read my mind" we head down stairs and to the back yard and lite up i take a deep inhale and blow the smoke out i tilt my head back and close my eyes as the nicotine rushes threw my body i take another long drag and then open up my eyes "man who knew there was so many stars" i say and look over to my brother charlie he shrugs and shuffles his feet my eyes return skyward "hey vi" i blow out my smoke and rub at my arms from the cold "what?" I ask "h...hows ur arm?" I look over at him he hasnt asked me about my arm this hole time its my turn to shuffle my feet around as i think about how to answer. charlie came home after the incident i kinda feel like he feels bad that he wasnt there to help me and nate "its fine"  in truth it itches like a mother fucker and hurts if i bump the cast i flick my cig and hear a hiss as it hits the snow and walk back to the sliding glass door before i open it i hear a soft "iam sorry" i look behind me and see charlie looking at me his blue eyes are shining in the porch light he blinks and i see tears escape he rubs at his face i sigh and walk over to him hes much taller then me and my head comes to his chest as i crash into him i wrap my arms around him and hug him tight "its ok char iam ok and nates ok dont go blaming urself" his arms tighten around me and i hear sniffling "ok ok" he clear his throat sighs and i feel his body relax alittle "now lets get inside before we freeze to death" i give him one last tight squeeze and let go he dose the same and we head back inside.
I lay on my bed but cant seem to fall asleep i thought having a queen size bed would be great but i find it to empty i sigh and toss and turn when i hear soft knocks on my door in a rhythm thats familiar i smile to myself and get up and unlock the door and see both nate and charlie "cant sleep ethier?" I ask nate smiles and shakes his head (can we come in?) I smile and then open my door they walk in and sit on the bed nate lays down and charlie sits his back agsint the wall i climb in bed and rest my back against the wall next to charlie nate scoots closer to me and i find myself runing my hand threw his hair somthing ive always done to calm him "its weird" i turn my head and look at charlie "i just expect to hear yelling and fighing or something breaking...but its so fucking quite" i nod.my head in agreement and hes right its to quite "yea i know what u mean i ..i guess we will have to get use to it" i smile over at charlie and he gives me a half smile back .

Most pple would think its creepy for 3 siblings ages 16 and 17 to fall asleep togather but when ur a child of abuse and ur siblings are ur only rocks in ur life u find comforter in there presences so when the three of them finally fell asleep and for the first time not having to worry about there drunk or high parents coming into there room and dragging them out of bed to beat them or blame them for crazy shit it was the best sleep they have ever had.