my life

introduction

-Hi I'm Victoria but you can call me Vicki for short and I have friends and I love volleyball, singing/dancing and drawing. I have two parents and I kind of love them. I'm 13 years old (almost 14 years old) and my birthday is dec 12 2006 and I'm in middle school. Life is sorta great but not all the time I have a lot of friends but some are mean to me but who cares, I was sad that my grandpa died so I would cry in front of my friends.I hope I can always be happy but i can't always be happy I'm only happy when I'm with my friends but one thing I wish happened is having my grandpa with me right now but at least he is not in pain any more but in pain emotionally and physically emotional I hope he is looking at me and thinking about me and how much I've grown up so much and one thing I wish could say one more to him is that I love him so much i know he loves me too but I want to say it to him but I hope I can fix myself soon so i can be happy but I kind of like being sad but i like being happy well, sometimes but being sad is ok. I have a dark soul and no one can fix my soul but I can't fix my own soul. My 2019 was not good, I had a bunch of breakdowns. I lost best friends just because of one mistake. I lost my grandma (that was on my dad's side) . I was heartbroken. I can't handle my life anymore. I feel hopeless.so to my parents you guys hurt me because of all the things you guys said and now I can't forgive you guys. I just want to die so i can see my grandpa.