Feelings Override

The Days in Age

Spending most your days hoping to grow up and enjoy things you couldn't if you were young. Thinking all you have is the world and time, but really time disappears and you're  wondering where time went. Always wishing you'd done something different or that time slowed down for you. Truly time moves the same whether you want it to or not, apathetic to how you feel either way. A slight creeping fear of your whole life moving ahead without you and you being stuck in the past wanting to precariously edge your way into something you know you should let go of. Emotionally excepting only brings anxiety while Physcially time carries you everywhere.

(This comes from my fear of growing up which is called Gerascophobia. I don't know why, but when I think about everything I've grown to love like memories and high school and friends and other things it just scares me out of the idea of growing up. It puts me in an emotional fit that takes hours to fix, but it's going to be alright. There is always going to be someone to talk to just like there are people to talk to all of you too.)