—Y/N
I finished off the letter to my the girl I once saw as the person I loved more than life itself. I sat the letter on the kitchen counter along with the keys to the apartment I shared with her and our two other friends. She moved in recently after she came back from out of state. I tried to live with her but it didn't do anything but bring back emotions that I buried. I decided to leave because I need to let it go for good and staying in this house with her won't allow me to do that.
I pick up my things about to head out the door when it opened and there stood the person I was trying to get away from.
"Y/N what...where are you going? Are you leaving?" Lori asked as she sat her phone and keys down on the side table by the door.
"Yes I'm leaving, it's better for me to leave this environment. So if you dont mind could you please step aside so I can go." I asked but she didn't move.
"Why are you leaving you can't leave." She said and crossed her arms.
"I can leave if I want to. I already talked to Alexis and Darren they know I'm leaving." I told her and a look of hurt and shocked washed over face but was quickly replaced with a stern look.
"So everybody knew except for me. Wow you were really going to up and leave and not even tell me." She said and I was starting to get upset.
"What are you so offended for it's not like you actually care. We don't even talk to each other when we're here together and I try to avoid you at all cost in case you haven't noticed. You fucked me up Lori you made me go through shit that could've been avoided if you were just straight up and honest with me." I said to her and her face softened she moved closer to me.
"Y/N I'm sorry I really am please believe me. I never meant to hurt you. I loved you baby, I only wanted what was best for you. I know I broke up with you but It was cause I was leaving but I'm back so please don't leave me. I need you." She said wrapping her arms around me and rubbing up and down my arms while kissing on me.
She kissed a certain spot on my neck and I dropped my bags because that's my weak spot.
"Let me make it up to you Y/N please. I promise you'll love it." She said and it was like she casted a spell on me because I couldn't say anything but yes.
She lead me to my bedroom and pushed me onto the bed. She got on top of me and started kissing me. I brought my hands to her waist and down to her ass. She stood up off the bed and stripped herself then me next. I was just in a sports bra and boxers when she dropped to her knees. She went to work and I closed my eyes and laid back.
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I open my eyes and almost immediately I'm blinded by the sun beaming through the window. I take a couple of seconds to adjust to the light and then look at the clock. I see it's 12:47 in the afternoon and I sit up. I quickly realize I'm fully naked and look next to me.
I see that Lori isn't there which tells me she must have already been up. I go to the bathroom and start the shower and brush my teeth while I'm waiting for it to get to the right temperature.
I get in the shower and wash up. After i wash up i don't get out of the shower I kinda just stay in there and just start thinking about yesterday. I allowed her back in when she didn't deserve it at all. I was mad at myself more than i was her because i could've stopped her but i didn't i gave myself up to her and fell into her trance once again.
I sat in the shower for another 10 minutes thinking about what I did but I realized that it wasn't just me she knew what she was doing. She was being manipulative again but I was done with that. Not anymore.
I put on some clothes and go to find Lori, i checked her room and other places she would be and i didn't see her so i go to Darren's room to see if he had seen her today and there she is. I stop in my tracks because it couldn't believe my eyes.
"Falling,falling, but I thought that you would need me"
She was having sex with one of my good friends and not even a full day after she just had sex with me. I didn't know what to do so I just left. I grabbed my backpack and stuffed the clothes i had on yesterday in there along with anything else i hadn't already packed.
I grabbed my car keys and my other suitcases and left. I put everything in my car and just left to where I didn't have a clue i just needed to leave that house and never come back and that's what I did.
It's been about six months and I haven't talked to either one of them except for Alexis because she was the only friend who didn't stab me in the back. I had moved to Atlanta and started fresh and I was finally happy after a year and some months of being sad and disappointed in myself and everyone around me.
My happiness is the only thing that matters now and no one will be able to take that away from me.
All In My Head😔
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