"what gege"
"I HAVE A REALLY BEAUTIFUL NEWS"
"what is it"
"YOUR PARENTS ARE GOING TO JAIL"
what no way they are going to the place they deserve I am so happy I can't even imagine I hope nothing happens to me in the future but the chances are less I am so.....relieved
then I started crying and gege hugged me
"it fi-finally ha-happened I can't believe I-It"
"it's true injun they are finally going to the place they deserve you are completely safe now"
"thank you"
"why"
"thank you for always helping me from the start thank you for loving me thank you for not leaving my side thank you"
"injun you don't need to thank me I am glad I saved you"
then yangyang came and said
"okie now you two done with your stuff right so now can we eat I am really hungry and I am really happy for you injun"
"thanks and we eat now"
then we sat on the table and started eating after eating I went to the bathroom for a shower as I took of my clothes I saw my weak body in front of the mirror now I am glad that the bruises are not fresh but the problem is that
they will stay forever
by staying forever it will remember me of those times my parents used to abuse me the time when they used to beat me with the belt or bamboo stick and rare times even with a metal rod, when they used to pull my hair and throw me in the near area that hurted a lot the times when they used to beat me so hard that I forget how to walk and sometimes they would beat me so much that I used to pass out I hated every second of my life I guess I never deserved happiness in my childhood well now I will have it I hope
then I hopped into the shower to release all my stress and sadness
it felt really good
after showering I wore my pyjamas and went straight to bed tomorrow I have to go with jaemin
I squealed thinking about him wait but why do I like him oh hell no I don't believe in love at first sight
but it could happen to me
eh leave it now sleep injun
then I went to sleep it's my first sleep without any abuse wow it feels really good
jaemin POV
after having dinner I went to the bathroom to brush my teeth I took the brush and applied the toothpaste and started brushing my teeth
after washing my mouth after brush I again took the toothbrush and put it deep inside my throat and threw up again I have to do it I have to look skinny I threw up really bad today
then hot tears started pouring from my eyes it hurt it hurt a lot why I have to go to this shit did I do anything wrong due to that I have to go through this I hate it I hate my life
after throwing up I opened the cupboard and took the razor today I am going to end it
you can do it jaemin u can
I turned on the razor and put that on my wrists
i started cutting myself but why I am getting scared to cut deeper than usual
"jaemin don't be a coward just do it"
but I could not why I am scared to do it my wrist was bleeding a lot but not so much for me to lose too much blood
the blood was flowing down my wrist till my elbow
then I started crying but I don't know why but I am crying I sat down on the floor with the bleeding wrist
"jaemin why are you such a coward why can't you kill yourself"
I started crying louder I hate my life I just hate it but today was kind of a happy day but it was just for a few hours it will never come again
why my life is the most unlucky one why I can't be happy I want to be happy and live without any sadness
I want a happy life I was crying so much that I drained out I am really tired so I decided to sleep in the bathroom......again
I hope I don't wake up tomorrow
wait I have to show renjun the university well someone else could do it he won't be bothered
Please Don't Wake Me Up
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hiii loves
i wrote this part in my online classes which is at morning from 8 am
I hope you are fine and today I finished writing it during my history classes and it's like 10:30 am
haha don't kill me and
jeamin will wake up he can't die just now and he will not
this part is not that good and
I love you️❤️❤️❤️❤️
ŞİMDİ OKUDUĞUN
Everything is not perfect ◗ norenmin✓
Hayran Kurgu╰┈➤ 𝐍𝐎𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐌𝐈𝐍 𝐅𝐈𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍. renjun is a victim of abuse due to which he ran away. jaemin has a dark past due to which he is sucidal. jeno wants love and time from his parents. warning: sensitive topics like abuse, self-harm, eating disorder...