PAGSUKO

"Kaya sa natitirang segundong kayakap ka. Maaari bang magkunwaring akin ka pa?"

I've been in a relationship with Nathan for 3 years at masasabi ko'ng walang oras na hindi ako masaya. I became a woman who's very inlove with Nathan. 
Nathan was my crush, and my first boyfriend. He's hella hot, handsome, and smart. A hardworking man who want to prosper and be the person he wanted to be, siya yon'g lalake na may pangarap sa buhay at isa yon sa pinaka-minahal ko sakaniya. To make it short He's the kind of man every girls would love to have.

When he asked me to be his girlfriend, I must say, I was the most happiest girl in the world.

"Baby, baby, baby ko.." he shouted our endearment"baby" in a sweet tone. he became aware of his sorrounding at the instant he flashed on the scene. In peaceful breathtaking view of mount scenery. As his face came to sight, I looked at him.

"Why? Baby" i spoke and chuckled. 
A sweet smile escaped from his lips

"Nothing, I just really love calling you using our endearment baby." He spoke.
I gasped as I felt his hands snaked around my body. And he rested his jaw on my shoulders. '𝒃𝒂𝒄𝒌𝒉𝒖𝒈' I closed my eyes and let myself feels his presence.

"I love you baby." I told him

"I love you more than who I am and what I have. I love you damn much baby." For a quick second I felt like I'm in heaven. God am really in love with this man.

I turned to see him, and he did not seem to be moved. I choked into a cough kasi di ko na kaya pagtitigan siya. Nalulusaw ako, nalulusaw ang kaluluwa ko.

Months passed by....

Napabuntong-hininga ako habang tinitingnan ang cellphone ko, wala pa kasi'ng text galing kay Nathan. Kakatapos ko lang kasi kumain ng lunch na hindi siya kasabay.

"Rena! andito ka lang pala". agad ako'ng pina-ulanan ng kiss sa pisnge ng kaibigan ko na si Ania nang makita niya ako.

Binatukan ko, walang tigil sa kaka-halik eh, ka'babaeng tao Adik.

"Yuck Ania! Ano ba! Baho ng laway mo! suway ko. But she just chuckled. At umupo sa harap ko.

"Bakit 'di mo kasama si Nathan? Where is he btw?" pang-uusisa ni ania.

"Obviously, wala nga siya dito. at nandon yon nakikinig sa professor niya." bagot kong sambit.

"Ah.. 'di pala tayo same schedule noh?" tanong niya pa, umirap na lang ako.

My boyfriend and I was studying at the same school but in different courses. He took BSEngineering while me I took BSNursing but it was not a hindrance to our relationship.

"Hey! Baby sorry may tinapos lang ako. Kumain kana?" biglang salubong ni Nathan sa'kin

Napatitig ako sa'kaniya. Ngunit agad din ako'ng nag-iwas nang tingin.
hinarap niya ako.

"Hey baby, what's wrong?"

‎"Nawawalan ka na ng oras sa'kin." tamad ko siyang sinagot.

Napa-awang ang labi ni Nathan dahil sa sinabi ko. Hindi ko na man maiwasan mailang sa posisyon namin ngayon. May ko'ng ano sa'kin na gustong-gusto na siyang yakapin. Pero dahil sa nagtatampo nga ako di' ko 'yon magawa.

Inalis ko mga kamay niya na nakahawak sa balikat ko at babaling na sana ako papalayo nang muli niya ako'ng pigilan.

"Look baby. I'm sorry. Busy lang" paghingi niya nang tawad.

"You've never been like this towards me before," pinandilatan ko siya

"I still remember your promised 'Walang salitang BUSY para sa mahal ko, para sa baby ko' am your top priority right? Pero 'bat ngayon hindi na?" madadamdamin ko'ng saad sa'kaniya.