Good bye or Get lost

I'm sorry

15 June 2018, this date will always be in my head because on this day I changed my life unintentionally. I still couldn't forgive myself for my action and never thought that because of my stupidity I would lead a life on my own. Yes, my name is Rachel Anderson and this is my story.
Lately my life was like burning in hell, Everyday I used to get up and run straight to school and my life was all about books because they were the only one who would not judge me and be nice to me unlike humans who just talk to me when they need something.
I was 2 years old when my mother passed out since then my father is taking care of me and acting as both mother and father and to be honest he is just hard working man and never leaves a reason to me smile. So he is everything to me but I never knew what future is ahead of me.
14 June is the special day of my life and when say that it's obvious that it's my birthday. I wanted it to be the special birthday ever because it was my sweet sixteen. So my father told me he was going to surprise me and we will go out on dinner. I was fully dressed up waiting for my father to arrive from work and we go out soon. I wore a pink dress as it was his favorite. It's 9 pm but still he didn't come home. I called at him on his number but he wouldn't pick, I even tried reaching out his work place but still there was no response. Now it was midnight and my birthday was over. I was so angry not because my father didn't make it up to me but it was my special day and I wanted to celebrate with my special person.
He came home next morning with red eyes, and his body was unstable like he was drunk. He came to me in my bedroom and told me how sorry he was but without listening I shouted at him and spoke some harsh words and told him to go away and leave me alone but still he was on his knees and in tears of how sorry he was but at that time I was so angry that I told him to "get lost" and he left the house with the feeling of guiltiness.
2 hours later I received a call from police that my father has passed away in a car accident on highway as he was drunk and left a note for me as a voice mail on his phone. The note said that he just lost his job and didn't had enough money to take me to a nice restaurant so he was working all night in bars and cleaning some shit so that he could earn some money and take me to my favourite restaurant. I was down in tears and I was just so weak at some point for the mistake I have done. That day I wished I used the word "good bye" rather then "get lost "so that my father would be alive.

Moral: Every single of word of your matters either you are saying it to a friend or family because using wrong words could break the bond between you and the people you love. If we see the words good bye and get lost have same meaning but these words differ in emotions. Even your harsh words could break a person into pieces so it's my humble request to always use kind words rather some bad words which leads to a heart break in your life. Always try to listen to other's problem instead of blaming them for what they have never done so always listen then react 💯. Always make other feel special to you so that they dont loose hope in themselves and the people who are weak at some point and are emotionally disturbed and try to react out for them and make them feel good.
This story characters are fictional so plz don't judge because it was just a way to present and I hope you got some moral from it and be nice to everyone ✌️
Written by : Amyn Merchant