Void.
It's like I'm stuck
You leave and I feel depressed.
Then I begin to not think about it
I get happy that I'm not sad anymore
But then that glue stuck to my back reaches the end and suddenly I'm torn back from my spot and flung to the ground exactly where I started.
Just for a night.
And I cry out
"How could you do this to me?"
And it occurs that you don't even know you did.
You live your life thinking that smile on my face is real.
That my laugh is louder because I'm happy.
That all of this has nothing to do with you.
And my life is just dandy.
Oh love, you shot me and thought I'd just dust off the bullets and keep on walking.
Oh love.
You don't know me at all.
If you did, you'd know that you cross my mind constantly.
That I feel pain in my chest when I hear your name.
When I see you I can feel the blood leave my face.
That I fake a smile and a laugh to make you think that my life is beautiful without you. And it is, I just haven't realized it yet.
I haven't forgotten like you.
I haven't moved on like you.
I don't want you anymore.
I don't miss you anymore.
But it still hurts.
I still notice the empty spot in my life you used to fill.
Void.
