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"just drove around...catching some air, thats it."

"at 4am?"

"you know what's going on. how could i sleep?" i said tearing up. he sighed and got up.

"please, don't cry."

"how could i not?" i said wiping my eyes.

"come on, let's get to bed."

i climbed in the bed and started playing with my fingers.

"i'm sorry. did i worry you?" i asked.

he nodded.

"a little bit. i thought you got another text or something."

guilty rushed over me. the way it's killing me that i can't tell him.

"no, if i did i would tell you."

"come here." he put his arm around my shoulder.

"what now?" i asked.

"you wanna talk? rant about something? anything?"

i sighed. there's so much i wanna tell him.

"when will i find my baby?" i asked crying.

"i don't know, baby." he said sadly.

"oh gosh...." i breathed out.

"it's okay..." he pulled me closer.

"i'm sorry.."

"don't you dare apologize. you're allowed to cry."

gosh, i feel so guilty.

*10 am*

i woke up with the sun shining through the curtains. i was asleep on his chest. i tried to get up without waking him up, but was not successful.

"mmm..." he groaned.

"sorry, i didn't mean to wake you.."

"it's fine. it's already...." he looked at the clock.

"10:17? wow, we should...." he said starting to get up.

"yeah.." i said sitting up.

"hey..." he stopped me.

"mhm?"

"we're okay, right? i mean, as a couple?"

i hesitated and i could tell he noticed.

"we're good." i said with a nod. he gave me a little smile.

i could tell he didn't wanna question my hesitation because it would probably result in a fight. and that's the last thing we need.

"you should get out of that bed." i said in the bathroom.

"mhm, soon." he responded.

i brushed my teeth and took a shower.

"babe, you've got a call!" he yelled.

"from who?"

"i don't know. some unknown caller?" i quickly turned off the shower and wrapped a towel around my body.

"woah, you're soaking wet-"

"sorry, i have to see who it is."

"you could've just called back the number when you're done....?" he looked at me like i was crazy.

"uh, yeah you're right. i'll be back."

way to panic and make yourself look like an idiot.

i dried myself off and put on lotion. i got dressed and walked out of the bathroom.