Friends.....right?

My diary

Me and Custis,or blue as he likes to call
himself have been friends for as long as I can remember.Are moms are best friends so we were more or less raised like twins I guess.Its tradition that every Wednesday and Thursday he comes round and we chill in my room,and watch something on Netflix.Its normally a horror,but I always get too scared.He seems to notice quite a lot though because he smirks then brings me close to his body,he makes me feel safe,feel wanted it's kinda weird though because lately I've been wanting him to come round more just so that he'll hold me.Ever since he hit puberty he's gotten these rock hard abs and started to wear cologne,it literally drives me insane.I wake up and think about him,eat and think about him,shower and think about him,go to sleep thinking about him it's like I have feelings for him but ew no this is blue we're talking about