You Learn To Let Go

Alone

My name is James, 16 yrs. old, I live in Butuan City, Philippines, Studied at Agusan National HighSchool, Taekwondo athlete and an Introvert and Apparently suffering from Depression.

It all started on my Tenth Grade all was normal as a student just surviving the school year, getting good grades, having fun, making new friends and other student stuff.

That time I never really cared about getting relationships cause I hate people and I really don't want to be with people in short I was a loner and I don't have many friends and the friends I have are the one's I call special but I loved being alone because that is my comfort zone I'm used to being alone.

I would find a nice peaceful and quiet place at school and stay there for hours just reading a good book. The problem is my school is a public school meaning there are hundreds of loud students walking by and I rarely get a chance to find a peaceful place.

My class ends at 5pm and after that I would then go to my gym. My Taekwondo Gym to be exact and train there for 2 hours, after that I would go home, eat dinner, do some homeworks and go to bed.

That's my routine every monday to friday. In the weekends we as a family would go to the mall and buy some groceries and stuff or I would go to school if there is any practice or a group activity and on sundays we go to church still as a family and I am prohibited to separate from my family on sundays because my parents are strict and sundays are our family day.

On October 2 there was a Taekwondo competition to be held in Cagayan De Oro and I was hyped to join in so one night the night before we travel to Cagayan we had a joint training with the other gym my instructor and the other gym's instructor are very good friends and decided to conduct a joint training so we went to the other gym to train. When we got there we started unpacking and changing to our dobok. (Taekwondo uniform)

Suddenly a girl who I never knew approached me she said:

Girl: Hello po, Anong pangalan mo? Anong section mo sa anhs?

"Sino ba to? Ano ba kailangan niya? E bigay ko nalang yung ID ko wala ako sa mood ngayun"

So I gave her my ID without looking at her

She reads it and said:

Girl: ahhh ok

And left.

Ano ba yun? Anong nangyari? Bakit ba nag tatanong siya sa akin? Marami namang tao dito bat sa akin?

(I know that I was rude but incase you forgot I hate people remember?)

Then the training session began and honestly their training compare to ours is much more extreme, hard and painful so we had a hard time keeping up cause we were always out of breath.

At the end of every training there will always be a sparring. Sparring means to use the knowledge you have on training and use it in a hand-to-hand combat or rather a leg-to-leg combat because Taekwondo is the martial arts for kicking with a minor use of the punching and we'll be usung armor and gears for protection.

During the sparring session I was sitting at the side watching the others spar and at the corner of my eye I saw a girl and she was on the other gym and I watched her spar, she was a very good athlete showing off her moves and not just any moves but rather very difficult ones and manage to hit a blow sometimes and she never showed fear.

I was impressed on how good she was but it never crossed my mind to ask her name so after the sparring session we all lined up, started cooling down, bowed to the Philippine flag and the Korean flag (bowing is the sign of respect in korea and Taekwondo originated in korea so we applied the bowing to show sign of respect) we then started packing up our things and went home, while I was packing, at the corner of my eye I saw her again the girl that shows no fear, she was also packing up her things and I was just "meh let her be" after I packed up I went outside, my parents were already outside waiting for me so I got in and we went home.