My Life

Life

            I wanted to get some things off my chest and didn't know where else to go. I'm having a hard time with a lot of things right now. I'm pretty sure my parents hate me, even if they wont say it, but I still love them. I'm going to start from the beginning, explain. To everyone how I got here, what I've experienced, and why I'm so done with life. I wont kill myself. I have people in my life worth fighting for right now but life itself hurts so much, so fucking much.

          It all started when I was little, I say about 8-9 years old. I didn't know much of what was going on but my siblings and parents would fight a lot. My dad would yell at my brother, and my brother would punch me and the walls. I was scared to even go outside of my room without hearing the booming voices of my family members.

          Fast forward a few years, middle school started. It really fucked me up. I started dating this one girl, I'm going to call her Jasmin, but that's not her legitimate name of course. It was amazing for the first few months, but everything else started to collapse on me. My family had gotten worse and Jasmine was only causing more stress.

         Three days before 1 year and a few months she broke up with me. I couldn't take it, everything started hurting. I tensed up a lot and my mind went blank. I was having a panic attack. I was really fucked up at the time and it felt like my life was only getting worse and worse.

          My family's fighting only got more intense over the years, worse and worse. I didn't even understand what they were fighting about but it got more intense and intense. My brother talking about brutally beating my dad, and my dad yelling while my mom was agreeing with my dad. This was the point where I just gave up. I didn't even try to do anything with my life anymore, and it all started to go downhill.

                              I just needed a
                            Place to vent my problems

                                                        -Zortcia