Meant To Be

Mew's Nong

"I will try to help as much as I can, I'm sorry Mew."

"Yes---be sorry!" Mew yelled before hanging up and throwing the phone over the glass desk without giving any fucks. "Be fucking sorry like it's gonna change something!" He groaned, having an urge to beat the shit out of something to calm down but he only got walls around of him.

After Gulf walked into his life, everything happened so fast.It started with blood, lies, strangeness and distance.But in the blink of an eye it kept going with late night talks, laughs, puzzles and food cans.Mew didn't think anybody could understand the thing between him and Gulf now.He loved Mild too, he was his best friend and everything; but he never felt like this with him.Gulf wasn't just a friend to him, he knew it too, he was something really precious he had to protect cause he had this thought in his head for years.This system was pushing him to hate the way he was, and Gulf was the boy he took from that place.He couldn't do anything to change this all, not now, but he had Gulf and at least he could protect him.He could do that much and it actually made Mew feel better, seeing the way Gulf started to smile with him and actually got comfortable was a sacred feeling.He knew Gulf was feeling the same cause the boy didn't like the way he was either, both of them were supposed to hate each other.Mew admired Gulf for being so brave and strong.He couldn't take a step for the things he found right, but Gulf did, he did it in a place like Area C.Gulf admired him for being normal, looking at Mew like that made Gulf think about the life he could have if he wouldn't turn out to be a fertile.They were both supposed to hate each other but somehow they both found comfort with each other.Day by day, being together got really fun.For Mew, eating dinner with someone was a nice feeling.For Gulf, having someone who looked at him like he was just a boy, was a nice feeling.Both of them were treating each other in a way they actually wanted it all this time, it just happened.

Mew didn't know it but it had a huge effect on Gulf.He was still disgusted by himself when he met with his mom and he got confused when he actually felt a little bit normal when he was with her.Like him having a 'thing' inside his belly was that abnormal, like he wasn't supposed to hate himself that much because of that.And after some time, it happened with Mew too.Older didn't notice it at all, but Gulf did.It was the reason why his aching got so worse and his doctor made that talk about Gulf needing to accept this situation.Cause he wanted to embrace it every time Mew was acting like it was such a holy thing, like it wasn't disgusting as Gulf thought, like it was something to be proud of.These thoughts pushed him to force himself to hate the 'thing' again, and caused that breakdown.It was difficult, but it led something better.

Gulf knew he liked Mew a lot, having him by his side became something so usual, like it was his mom standing by his side.Mew wasn't some guy who had a good heart and wanted to help him, he was like that at first, but now, he was someone Gulf cared about.

It was strange as hell, cause Gulf knew himself.He needed to be furious right now, he was supposed be so angry while that guys were taking him to that room and not even informing him about the things but ordering him to lay on the stretcher.Gulf should've been so angry, he should've create a mess, make a fuss, yell and punch few guys until he was trapped on that stretcher.But he didn't feel like that, he just layed on it like they said and took a deep breathe.

He wasn't feeling angry.

He was scared.

He realized being scared was so much worse than being angry.

The side he created in Area C wouldn't let him feel scared like this, but spending so much time with Mew caused him to let that side go.It wasn't needed anyway, Area X was safe and if something would go wrong, Mew would somehow fix it.That was why his mind was quick to tell that he was Mew's mate when that man didn't stop hitting him.He never thought about this, but deep down he started to rely on Mew more than he thought.