Hard love

My Relationships 💄😔

Hello , I don't know from where I start ! , it's 23:43 18/09/2019 weird feelings are hugging me...
Tonight I'm gonna tell u about my story .
This SHIT started when I was 12Y.O ( 2013) I've been studying at middle school, I had a Facebook named " MANO LOLA DEL " It was my first one . I didn't use to talk to people on it actually I wasn't active all the time cuz of the network it wasn't available only in grandma house or I go to the cyberspace.
One day a Girl asked me for a friend request, and absolutely I accepted her, so we started talking , but it wasn't like a daily talk .. one day she asked me for a meeting. I accepted of course cuz I wanted to see her and hug her also I was exited to meet my internet friend and I was sure I'm gonna like her , I wasn't afraid to meet her cuz I knowed everything about her like her age / life style / family and so on, on Facebook we were talking and sharing stories then we started listening to the same music and our relationship became more serious and more than internet friend , so we started talking on phone and sending messages all the time without stopping , after a long time of talking and hanging out together we became more and more closer to each other we've been sharing our problems like teenagers and finding solutions to them .
After 2 years of this friendship , this friendship returned into RELATIONSHIP between two girls, so i had that feeling like I'm falling in love with her and she's falling in love with me, and yes it was a true feeling... with time we started talking about those +18 subjects and I felt like we're going wrong and suddenly she asked me for a kiss!! Yes a kiss , I was choked like I didn't understand what the hell is going on ! And I've been like OMG WAIT THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG I HAVE TO FIX IT , so of course I refused the request, and we didn't talk for a good time , at that time I've been studying for my BEM exam, in the last days of 2016 I texted her on Facebook again and hanged out for days at the little magazine of her aunt... at that time where we weren't talking I've been hanging out with my BFF yes it's another one from the city where I live , and she was my best one and she was so effective in my life and I thank her , anyway I felt like m gonna love her so I was like cheating on the first one !! So I fixed out the mess and I contacted her and I felt so sorry about wut I did but she didn't accept that and she was broken heart, she refused to come back to me and she said " IM NOT GOING TO BE GOOD ONE FOR U ANYMORE BE CAUSE I HAVE CHANGED A LOT " So I said " NOO ! U WILL BE DON'T WORRY YOU'RE MY ONE AND WE ARE FOR EACH OTHER " she replied "IM LESBIAN NOW I HAVE A LOT OF FEELINGS TO GIRLS I LOVE GIRLS I LIKE THEM " .
In the beginning of 2017 , new life , new friends, new high school, new place , I decided to forget her and keep saving my BFF , and actually we were going so good , and I've knowed new girl she was my BFF's friend at the school. I'm gonna tell u fact , I've been in deep love with my BFF and I felt so jealous even of the air when he touch her ... when I released this I'm in love with her I started doing problems and like leaving her cuz I was sure she will never accept my feeling to her we were with different minded , I don't know how to explain that ...
2018 I failed to save my friendship and I feel so sorry till now . U remember my BFF's friend right? Yes , she became my BFF fact we were BFF but at that time we became officially BFF , the same thing repeated with her we started hanging out talking to much on internet and sharing music,stories , secrets...
But this time I learned a lot of things like " never let the person u love leave " and " to mshow ur real feelings " so now I'm taking care of this relationship with all of my heart and I'm so happy .
Okay ...
That was PART1 just telling u the relationships that I've been in .
• The girl of the friend request : Isra
2013/2019...
• The BFF of the same city : Lina
2015/2019.
• The BFF's Friend : Dina
2017/2019...